Peace Is Now

Behind these eyes you will never get to see these tears as it is not deserved,

Inside this heart you will never get to feel the broken pieces that you have created,

The depths of this tormented soul you will never get to touch again as you’ve hated,

The thoughts inside my mind you shall never discover again as you’ve judge me as a lie,

 

My commitment I gave you for life should have been til death do us part but I remain alive,

The sacrifices I made within my life for you seem to be nothing more than a bleeding wound,

The love I had for you fed my heart and soul but now it feasts on me constantly hungry,

The soul I thought I once knew better than anyone turned into a distant stranger of pretence,

 

I loved you more than life itself and would have gladly given you my last breath,

The years spent with you I treasure even though in reality it’s probably worth penny’s,

The struggles and life and death situations we have been through should’ve made us unbreakable,

The sadness of this life that seems like a lie will haunt me trying to reason it and clarify the reason why,

 

Open up that book that you have beat me with one more time and read the pages you left blank,

Why did you not fill in the blanks and allow this to breakdown in silence that I never heard,

I question myself and my senses and still have no answers to why I never felt nor saw the reality,

Its deafening the voice inside that now screams at me and judges me for living blind and unconditionally,

 

We were blessed with 3 miracles and our children will now burden the lies and pretending unfairly,

I accept the faults made by myself as we are not all perfect and I ask forgiveness for these sins,

I look into their eyes and I see the hurt they have in their hearts and I will bleed for them to heal that,

There suffering I will not allow to happen no matter what action or consequence … I hope you feel the same,

 

I have reached the point now where I have accepted what has transpired til now and make peace,

I am no longer in need of medication to suppress the emotion that eats me for what I have lost,

I can no longer regret things I can’t change and circumstance I can no longer control,

If this is fate then I need to try and discover the reason for it no matter how much it hurts,

 

I forgive you for the shattered heart that lies in my chest,

I forgive you for the ripped soul that holds on for life behind my eyes,

I forgive you for the tears that have burnt my skin forever and will scar me,

I forgive you for the broken commitment we made to each other for life,

 

I pray for your forgiveness for all my sin’s and mistakes,

I ask for your understanding that I am not perfect even though I wish I was,

I loved you to the moon and back and I will never know if you felt the same,

I can’t hold onto this anger or pain any longer as it is destroying my heart and soul,

 

I move forward without you and you will have to watch me walk away even though I watched you run away,

 I won’t look back any longer and I will not cry for you anymore as that pain has been paid in full,

I will no longer dream about you as the nightmares have become too much to handle,

 

I am at peace now and I pray that you will find peace and actually realize what we had and appreciate it for what it was …

 

Good luck and this is goodbye as I will never look back again my path is to go forward with no regret and no more pain,

 

Peace is now …. !

 

Reviews

[Tiana]

Through all you have endured, I wish you peace and joy, Mike ... Raw emotions so beautifully conveyed-- it touched me deeply. Aloha

[Mike]

Aloha thanks so much for the review