. i think the pain that you've expressed can only be expressed by someone who has depth of perception and emotion ... this is such an overwhelming piece of writing ... your words weep ... they are worthy of the greatest mercy, empathy, and, compassion ...
there are kinds of things that can happen in life that push us into tiny tight corners and imprison us with walls of grief beyond repair...of them this is probably the rawest...any yet...
Bereaved to an undefinable depth. This is raw emotion in surprisingly few words, couldn't hurt more if it was a tome. Sad, so very sad. Crying for self is a right, a remedy, a reward and never to be regretted.
Whew ... these are deep and dark thoughts .. And I am sad to say, I can very well relate .... When no one is near, I cry for me .. and I also cry for her ..
I am so happy to be writing! I was an attorney in my previous incarnation. These days, I teach voice mostly, write some and do a little psychotherapy. It seems like a good combination for me.
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