This thing is slowly killing me

It's a poem i wrote a long time ago...as you can see, it's about a girl. Only those close to me know what girl O_O

This thing is slowly killing me
Eating away at my insides
It's ripping me apart
It's making me die
I tried to stop it
tried to make it slow down
But all it does is go faster
In it's neverending rounds.
You ask me what this thing is
You ask me to explain
But i cant say it out loud
Because if i do, i will never be the same
I see her in the mirror
she's looking back at me now
She's in my reflection
I keep asking myself how.
The tears run down my face
They stain shirt again
I try to make them stop
But thats a battle i cannot win.
So i let them fall
It their neverending flood
And the knife cuts deeper
I glorify in the blood

This thing is going to kill me
It' going to rip me apart
Even now i can feel it starting
It's already broken my heart
I wish i could see her again
I miss her more with ever breath
But i cant seem to realize
that i have destroyed everything we had left
So i look in the mirror again
And i wish for it all back
But i am a fool to wish for something
that i will never again have
So i turn away from the mirror
And i cry a crimson tear
And as the knife falls from my hand
Her voice is all i can hear






 

Author's Note

I know it's kinda depressing o.o