maintain

The version of my real self

…then he also said;

                      I am Left with a fake life,

                      Pushed from expectations from family and friends,

                      I am no closer, now someone else,

                      Lonely, solely fighting for sanity and a worthwhile life.

 

…Close to the mirror he said;

                 Trying to get this crazy thought,

                 Out of mind, to rid off this blot,

                 For now, I realize that sometimes I am not that smart,

                 But still desperate to pluck my brain from heart.

 

No! I don’t want to live in stress or fear,

I need to rid this people out my mind

If I crawl, run or fly I don’t care,

In the purity of soul shall I be free from this grind.

 

Now I see, this is the day the lord has made,

I can now move in absence of fear or terror,

But in case I run into someone on a different page,

I will say to myself…

                     “Dear God help me maintain”                      

#IAMOMOJUWAJOSEPH.

Memoir of a dated life event.