My Fight

written 7-12-08

counting hours, minutes, seconds

is temptation always this hard?

just one more won't be bad.

keep quiet, don't speak outloud.
they won't know, won't understand.

surrender, it's easy; fight, you die.
do i need this so much, to become so low?

to drown to just sink and play victim again.
can i stay afloat; make it another day?

just so i can say i did.