"Grey"

When did I start being so damn apathetic

I used to be so f*****g poetic

I used to feel: sadness, happiness and things in between

Now I can't even feel anything that's real

Hydrangeas, 

I once found so beautiful and lovely

I can't even distinguish them from other flowers now 

and that disgusts me

Teardrops

Fall from my eyes to my cheeks

Why?

I thought I couldn't feel.

A smile forms on my face

Wait,

Can I feel?

Yes. 

No.

I don't know.

I don't know what to do with my life anymore.

Questions that people ask

I don't have the answers to.

The only thing that i do know:

I'll never stop loving you.