My emo love story

so I'm emo I've tried to kill myself a few times I was dealing with depression or the Darkness as I called it and then I met this girl who I plan on marrying and she helped me through it.

Whenever they looked at me it was from the outside, they never saw what was lurking

Working to keep things hidden from them, I tried to understand why I was so alone

A stepfather that beat me, a mother that didn't care and brothers who were busy

I had no one there for me my only buddy was a shiny little thing called a knife, it ate my pain

I had no one to love me I was followed by the Darkness, it wanted my soul badly I could see

The only thing I could do was survive, follow the light I could see and keep breathing

It got harder as time passed so many tries and yet no one dies, not one success

Access to eternal happiness is what I wish, I always got close but the Darkness ate it too

Why'd it have to be so mean I needed someon on whom I could lean and love

No one came at my calling, my voice seemed to be silenced once and for all

Falling into nothing no grasp on anything no one to catch me or throw me a rope

A friend dragged me to a dance I didn't want to be at, my prom maybe my only one

I was close to killing myself but then we were thrown together and I was nervous

We became friends and I missed you like crazy afterwards, but you came back

I asked you to be mine hoping for the best and expecting the worst, the Darkness wouldn't touch

You said yes and kicked it back, I still feel it near but you are my white light my angel and my everything