Numb

I think we've all had to face our demons at one point in life.

Closer to that feeling for which I've been craving.
Numbness hits my still body and my mind goes blank.
Don't know why I resort to this nurturing agent,
which represents the falsehood of my sanity.

I often say "That was the last time," but yet we meet again.
You steal my grip on reality and ease the pain brought on by my disdain.
Each time never as good as the last; always needing more and more to get my fix.
You're stealing the very life I was given, and that's not all in your bag of tricks.

The pain is never really gone, only irrelevant for a short matter of time.
You make me not want to feel ever again, the pain is too much.
One should not have to bear this alone, but yet you're always there.
Making me numb so that I don't have to feel.

You never treat me wrong either,
no judgment is passed upon me by your fading silhouette.
Every time we meet the collision is catastrophic in nature.
My body slowly starts to tingle and you take me to heights I could have never reached alone.

I am aching for your control; the emotions reality has graced me with fall back to Earth,
as you take me farther and farther to the unknown.
Oh, how you made me feel of worth in this pitiful world full of indecencies.
I soon come crashing back to normalcy, realizing living without feeling isn't living at all.

Author's Note

This is about a demon I've been facing for quite some time from my past. Hopefully you enjoy it.

Reviews

[jennifer little]

amazing and wonderful poetry great job keep up the good work

[Thea]

An amazing and great poem...I really enjoyed this one...
:)))