Grey Emotionless Pit

A Poem by dillonjensen

Empty and vacuous.

She was blue like the ocean,
Lost in waves of depression.
I was grey with apathy,
Indifferent to her situation.

She craved to be red or yellow,
But I made it so damn hard.
Lost in my blindness of color,
Even my own lover's hue faded.

That once vibrant patch of life,
Now bleak and empty,
Completely devoid of emotion.

I guess this is growing apart,
And I guess it's my fault.
I never cared when she needed me most,
Or when she needed someone to lean on.
It's not her fault I only saw shades of black and white.

My vision was clouded,
So I didn't notice these things.
A hug,
A hand to hold,
A friend that said, "I love you."
I couldn't even do that because I was too selfish.

Lost within the framework of my head,
A wasteland of what ifs.
The once bright thing that gave me clarity,
Now is a constant reminder of how far I've fallen.

And this is apathy kicking in,
Reminding me of my indifference,
Of my emotionless pit for which I am king.