I Deserve Better

This is a piece of slam poetry I wrote after one of my break ups some time ago.

I saw black from white and then the grey in between
glistening auras and spelling games in which I tried
to deciphered your emotions.
You never felt anything but cold and cold weather
Me, and sunny horizons from which you can flee to, from
the grip that you thought I had on you.
Flee the emotions I offered and the emotions
you were not ready to receive, conceive, and appreciate.
So you decided to make it easy on you and not
share the moments, those selfish moments in which
your eyes glistened in and the moon as it rose over those horizons
you called your own, and never mine.
With the people you treasured above all else, your friends.
The fact of the matter is that you never realy cared, my
heart kept on falling and swindling on strings of hope,
never wanted to be cut but broke by your selfishness,
Madness an willingness to fight me and willingness to not give me
Time. When I had declared my time to be all yours.
Willingness to brush me aside when your friends insulted me
Blame me for the mistakes I correctly make. You, and you only,
that of which sits in his throne sending break up messages to this cheap
old 30 dollar phone, you who thinks this is okay. Well it is not, it really isn't. 
it is not okay for you to ignore my emotions,
disregard my actions as mere bumps along the beautiful day that lies ahead of you.
Because I hurt,
because I ache, and
because I know I deserve better.
I deserve better.

Author's Note

Thanks for reading!