The Breaking Angel

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spinning, spinning, spinning

Nauseating pain coming from the stomach

Please please stop!

slow down at least...

I'd like to breathe

I'd like to know I'm still alive

Still here

Still connected to the ground

I thought I'd like to fly

But it seems too unyielding

I get sick from being away too much

I want to stay with the world

Maybe I could make it better

Maybe I could help it

Am I worthy?

Am I helping?

Am I deserving to try?

My head is hurting, hurting, hurting

My head is being crushed with pressure

Surrounding me is all the idiots and standards and statistics of your time

All the norms and everything that is kosher

I don't agree with any of that

My body is outstanding

My mind is overwhelming me

I am too strong for that

The pressure is crushing, breaking, strangling me

You have to let go

You have to stand back and understand that I am not like you

The more you try the more I am determined to change from you

To change into something you couldn't fathom

A perfect angel, a light-hearted spirit

That will be able to fly

 

11/10/1999

Author's Note

break free and pursue your dreams