Last Dance

You don't appreciate what you have till it's gone.

After a whole life time of battle i sat at her bedside..

As they approached me to see if i was doing ok i was asked if anything could be done to make things better. 

I could only say one thing and that was "appreciate"

A young women took notice to what i had said and stepped out of the crowd. She looked at me confused and not to sure as to how to response.

I walked away and paced my mothers room, looking at all the memories left behind.

Going throughout the whole photo album realizing that not many memories were left to look at 

Then the young women followed me outside and looked at me once again and asked "appreciate? how can that make things better for you."

My response to her was simply this 

"Appreciate what you have before its gone,appreciate those you have in your life.'

I then walked back to my mothers room leaving the young women to take in what i had just said 

I walked into my mothers room before she was taken away and laid next to her and said quietly 

"To lose you has been the greatest loss and nothing  can ever replace.

To have so much to say and never get that last warm embrace.

I sit here and hold your hand knowing you can't feel mine.

i looked at your chest as you took your last breath.

Watching life escape from your very body has crush my soul

Im here wishing that i could take back time to make everything alright.

But i'm here in pain knowing that chance will never be given to me.

 but i have hopes.... hopes that i will see you again."

Getting up from that bed was the hardest thing i ever had to do. I let go of my mothers hand slowly, got up and glanced at her one last time. I then turned around and locked the door behind me.

The young women then understood exactly what i meant, Don't wait to long to start appreciating others because tomorrow is not promised... this could be our very last dance.

Author's Note

Although this story talks about a mother this is a short story that i have dedicated to both my parents. I lost my dad at the age of 16 and lost my mom at the age of 19. Both different situations but gave the same exact feeling. My parents left behind 4 beautiful girls including myself of course :) I've been left with the great privilege of rising and taking care of my 3 younger sisters. Ive grown from this experience and it has made me a better person and a great mother to my sisters. In any loss of this sort theres always that hope despite anything... that hope that you will have the chance to see your loved ones once again. This story focusing on appreciating those that you have in your life before they are gone.

Reviews

[JBoone]

I am so sorry for your loss. You are a strong women to have risen from this and cared for your sister. You are beautiful inside and out. Well done. This story has a great message. APPRECIATE is so powerful.

[The Fallen]

It's a great piece of work you've written here. I always tell myself and others that you never really know what you have until it's gone. Sometimes I like to believe that I understand what it means myself but I know that nobody ever truly does until they experience genuine loss. I've kinda been going through a bit of block lately but reading this has actually helped me. Thank you for that.

[Daniela Diaz]

You are very welcome!
It is definitely very hard to talk about these things but when you open up and share not only are you allowing yourself to feel but helping other relate, and that helps to show others that they are not alone in what ever they are going through. We don't always appreciate what we have till it's gone but we learn a great lesson when we do experience that loss. Thank you so much for reading!

[Orange Juice]

I'm so sorry about your losses, no matter how long its been nothing will make it better or rather to recover from such tragedies is not an easy task. Its beautiful that you've accepted this challenge and task(being a mom to your sisters) that life has placed for you, you're strong 'n brave.. Beautiful writing D, simply Amazing!!!
Thanx for sharing your story!

[Daniela Diaz]

Thank you very much for your words :) they mean a lot and thank you for taking the time to read it! :)

[Orange Juice]

I'm so sorry about your losses, no matter how long its been nothing will make it better or rather to recover from such tragedies is not an easy task. Its beautiful that you've accepted this challenge and task(being a mom to your sisters) that life has placed for you, you're strong 'n brave.. Beautiful writing D, simply Amazing!!!
Thanx for sharing your story!