Tantrum

You woke up again
Where is she?
I need her to hold me
I need her to put me to sleep

I said she couldn't do that anymore
 Repetition
But I'm not tired
I know what this is

I'm here
I will hold you and put you to sleep
You said you were tired

I watched you
cry until you couldn't breathe
And felt my hands tremble
 I think I told you to stop
But the words came out much kinder

I knew you couldn't understand
When you hit your head against the wall
Over
And over

Then I heard them call my name
I locked myself in the bathroom
You were banging on the door saying that
You were sorry
I know

I know

I know the nameless feeling
The heavy kind that whispers
No one prepared us for this

They are all fools
I don't think
They knew
What they were creating

But I don't think they were supposed to

And to see you
Like that
There is no pressing it down
It becomes a fragment
An unresolved recollection

Irreparable
 And no one around to understand

No one but you and me
The meaning of why we're here
And why the bridges fall apart

I said I don't know
How to make this okay
I don't know how to live
Without this part
 Repetition
Where is she?
I need her to hold me
I need her to put me to sleep

Then I put you to sleep

Reviews

[Distant horizons]

Such beauty and caring in your words, reaching out to protect and care for another when all you feel is loss is a wonderful thing to do. Both in it together, keeping each other from being completely alone. Beautifully written.