Family Tree

In-laws are terrible.

It seems my life thus far
is all loose ends 
and burning bridges
and even the metal round my finger
seems to melt
in the bitterness i am forging
two young hearts
too stupid to know better
jumping through hoops
too soon
should've seen it coming
should've known you, 
you would let me down too
do i set the bar too high?
am i too unforgiving?
i must apologize
for these wounded eyes,
men are such traitorous beasts
a four headed Hydra which feasts
so ravenously on my 
insecurities-
your mother, your brother, your father, your sisters
in arms, who wield these words meant for wounding
as if i were not encircled in your promises
til death do us part
instead you've taken my heart
for granted
and though i dig fingernails
into my sleepless nights
i cannot seem to accept blindness
and so i seek out numbness
in cold places,
in pale places,
in little round, painless places
because though i have popped the jelly
of my eyes, 
from all my restless digging,
i can still see disapproving faces
hanging nooses 
from your family tree
must they all be for me?
it seems i can do no right
in love and war
fumbling, blind, 
to find that you are
cold in both your shoulders
believing me secondary, incendiary
worthless, useless
beneficiary
i see now that it is your mouth
which has spit such poison on the branches
of our fledgling family tree
as to spur your blood bonded 
littermates
to take up saws against me
and thusly sever us
in two-

 

Author's Note

HIs brother calls me "the Whore Bitch".

Reviews

[James]

This feels like looking into a mirror of my own mind at times. So powerful. Great write.

[Brandon S. Whitten]

The world may not have a truth, but doesn't mean there isn't one. Excellent read and write.

[Abdul Batin Osman Bey]

I think we all have feelings like this at least I did, the angry and misery comes through so silk like, great write

[zainul]

Disgrace for the so called civilized people.
His brother or anybody else has no right to humiliate.
Great write.
Humanity is with you.

[Revery]

I know this pain, I have experience it and only after I didn't give a s**t anymore did they lose their power over me. Don't be tired of being strong and not only be strong but be cunning. Since I know this experience so well I can tell how accurately and intensely your poem captured it. Great job.

[Shalini Dinesh]

something hurting led to something which turned out to be a good poem...

[_Hanabi_]

really great!!

[Tenebrousoul]

Jeez. I thought my family was bad......
Great poem. Sorry you have to have such inspirations.