Confusion

My mental life.

Being blessed with schizophrenia is unethical and it hurts

Thinking about cutting myself

The thought of it hurts

The thought of demons

A god is unethical

In my mind it's all bull s**t 

So I live my life skeptical

A walking paradox 

bi-polar for no reason

I feel like a traitor to my self

A Benedict Arnold

I'm committing treason

Losing touch with what matters

Still looking for help

Trying to find myself

No pain amounts to this mental pain I've felt.

-ImFnLife