Shattered

We all must face our darkest fears alone...

My heart is shattered
Into a thousand
Tiny
Little
Pieces.

The cracks that had been sewn up
By the barest of threads
Have torn at the seams.
My soul escaped
My insides crumple.
The faint light that
Shined in my life for the briefest moment
Has been ripped from me, and stolen my dreams.

I loved him
Gave him my heart and
Opened my soul.
He left it bleeding, broken
For the arms of another
Wanton lover
Dreams of marriage, family, home
Snatched from outstretched arms
Five years turned to nothing
No more.

Two years pass
I struggle alone
Pick up the pieces and
Build a new home.
Happiness and strength return
But still I am alone.
Then he comes along
Fills up that hole.
I am uneasy
Not willing to let go
Share my new life or
Break down that old wall.

He cares, he loves
I am reassured.
Slowly I bloom, dreams of
Marriage, family and home
Rekindled, my heart soars
I have raised from the gloom
I share my secrets and open
What is left of my soul.
Dare I say it
I have fallen yet again

Only for the devil to take it
And laugh at his win.
I am broken, irreparable
Those bare threads, holding
The cracks of my heart closed
Ripped, shredded and pulled.
He doesn’t care, he doesn’t love
No more reassurance

What does it matter
My heart destroyed
My soul forever gone
Life of happiness is
An unrealistic song.

My heart is shattered
Into a thousand
Tiny
Little
Pieces.

Author's Note

Written with no thoughts on creating a masterpiece. Words used only as an outlet to bleed. :***(

Reviews

[RFE]

wow! that's amazing your words truly touched me and made me feel something.

[ice]

Wow! now that is a sad song, Fell emotions cannot be quelled if held inside, unshared,,Your writing about them is certainly sharing, go on as long as you must.

Let it bleed.

[Poeticadia]

I like the form and structure of this peice, divided symmetrically into two... like the two halves of a broken heart... and the short lines undulating like the ups-and-downs of reaching highs (in love) and lows (rejected). Some heart-rending imagery too.

[Tommy]

I have been there, and I don't think I have found my way back from the depth of hell yet, but I have started to hope again, and that is all you can do...Full of hurt this write is, purge it from you, and one day you will find hope again...

Written With A Solemn Heart!
RLG,
Tommy

[SpokenWord]

Well I can share in this misery with you, I think I completely understand where your coming from. What I am about to write is something I need to read as well, LOL but.. the heart is the strongest muscle and no matter what it will with time to love again. All of this pain will go away and you will bloom once again and love again and one day get married, have the 2.5 children, white fence and two dogs or cats depending on your taste. Just don't become jaded those two guys represent less than .005 percent of all men in this world. So I will cry with you but know all this will be a memory one day.