I'm So Fake

:) I'm seriously a happy person ;)

 

I’m So Fake

 

No longer true, but yet no much a lie.

Thrown to hell and fire licks,

The breathing of my beats,

Will f*****g tear with fingers.

I know, I know, I know

Such a sin alive today,

Can be discarded

But then kindled

In my flame.

Burning uprising,

That is my day.

The color of the

Broken, the seed of dismay.

All of them, the countless armies

And slew of my own vocals cords

Fall to deaf at any cost to the life lost.

A vision, I once had, the feeling of god,

Myself, a fabrication of my own tearing,

My own f*****g breaking.

An era, no..no..a legacy

Risen from the depths of my dreams

And speech of which I had with another.

Yet the electronic pulse realizes something more I don’t.

The f**k aches harder, more so then in the sun.

But the dead part of winter,

That is where this cold war comes to end.

And a new beginning, a new, a new pillar, a new god, I come to know.

I come to destroy it.

Desecrate its feelings, its emotions, and its ideas.

I’ll become something more that is…driven in rage,

And in…in dare I f*****g say it!

BLIND PRIDE, THAT OF THE ANCIENTS.

The energy in myself, a mix!!

Yes a mix!

I can feel so much.

Yet I fathom nothing!

I BUILD WORLDS,

YET I F*****G KILL IT ALL.

Now a week.

A pain I shall share.

A goddess fit for myself,

Yet a fight, and I broken,

My throne removed

And a thorn’d crown replaced.

A vessel now I am, for all f*****g sin.

To rise up! To become bathed in pride!

Yet the mirror knows of me, and knows of where it all lays.

Shaking, I realize, something more then that’s beneath the mantle,

Beneath the crust.

I am a fake.

I am a liar.

I am nothing more.

Yet I’ll be damned,

If I lose this feeling.

 

Be damned in the thought of this nonsense once more!

Hah! I thought to change I could!

But just like the Christ, that was only the first fall.

I can’t wait to see what is next,

What is next I create!

Another bond broken!?

Is not Eighteen days enough to form apocalypse!?

With fire are my fingers!

With fire are my tools!

And with them!

I mark myself with the mark

Of the beast!

For I now know I am no god!

Yet that of its opposite!

I persecute myself!

A modern day Nero!

To condemn myself in blood!

In tears!

And in water!

An emperor of my own legions?!

How laughable is this amount of pride!

And thus, my second falling through.

And the eyes remain looking still, out into the world I created.

Surely, I must see fully now! The Orange commands!

But no, rising up to the cross of my own

ARROGANCE!

I wish to be nailed upon!

 

Yes, I am desecrating His name.

Do not judge. Or you will be like me.

A tormenter. A pain-bringer.

A heretic.

 

This is what comes with more falls.

A heightened sense of things,

And the ability to give out tips

And wisdom,

Knowledge and holiness!

The crowd grows

And they know I will die!

Yet they laugh at this god.

In his pride.

In his unattainable rights!

 

BUT THE F*****G MIRROR

I reference once more.

It’s devastating in its power,

Even when I do not need one at all.

I can leave this body, and see myself

In light

(Or darkness)

That others can’t.

 

Then I fall a third time…

And my hell –demon sheds…

And unlike the holy book,

This is the time she comes from the crowd.

Where she picks up the cross,

Throws it away,

And realize together

What we have become.

More than friends,

More than lovers…

More than fakes.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Reviews

[jesthepoet]

Wow! Very intense! Leaves me feeling a bit like walking away from a concert with the beat still throbbing in my head. I especially liked the lines from "A vision, I once had, the feeling of god..." to "...a new god I come to know." Very powerful stuff!

[Stonewall]

As usual with your good self, this is an intense read. The pace and power of the lines hold my interest where at times I became a little detached from the imagery and references. I thought this line was phonetically fantastic "Fall to deaf at any cost to the life lost."

Well done.

[Säde Ryder]

Your allusions to biblical passages and historic figures are quite intriguing. It is fractured yet coherent. It strikes me as a psychotic rant of the loveliest kind.

[Richy]

How demented sounding ^-^ wonderful
It's like some guy ranting on taking over not only the whole world but everything in essence itself
=/ I can hear it now in some hysterically crazy voice.
Which is good, yay!
and what all the others say... Immensly powerful..... WOW..... nicely done.

[Beautifully Tragic xPoe..]

Immensly powerful lines, here. Nicely done. Really enjoyed this.


Great Write.
rayne

[Nina Love]

i agree.
WOW.
immensley powerful.

[Sarah Hale]

WOW...