A Vault of Glass

Know me not by my actions but by my heart.
I desire to be loved yet I cannot express this.
I fear
Inside I cry, outside I laugh.
Do you really know me?

I want to share myself to you.
I won't burden others.

It has been said that I needs be vulnerable to connect with another.
My ever present vulnerability lies unexpressed.

Know me not by my actions, yet judge me for my heart.
I love you, yet I cannot express it as such.

Oh what time I have spent pondering over imagined scenarios of expression, connection, affection.
What have I done except dwell in the shadowy recesses of mine blind mind.

Be with me not for I am alone, hidden within a vault of glass.
A mere expression away from shattering.

I fear the glass as the pain it will cause to others burdens me.

Fear me not for what I am.
For I am alone, holding no family to bear.