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It’s like I’m walking down this road with two left shoes on two right feet, it feels like I’m walking in space unable to take stride.  Deep down my heart knows what it needs and it’s much more important than the desires of my wants. It’s like being a part of both worlds but that world is upside down.  Is fate playing a cruel trick on my heart?  Forcing a Mack truck out of my mind going 100mph. All this time waiting for this day, and now the two of them Fair weather friend and Out of the blue shows up with resumes in hand.  Oh could someone please give me a crystal ball to at least give me an idea of what is to come if I chose one over the other? My hearts conscience reminds me of the past hurt and pain as I look down at the scar on my mended heart.  It’s like looking out of a magnifying glass for the words to say goodbye to one and I hope he understands.  Even though my heart is hungry it’ll maintain and refrain from uncontrollable binges.  I decided to calibrate with my heart and then I asked the question:

 

“If my existence depended on you losing your life would you leave me to die so that you could have life?

 

The fair weather friend replied “I love you but I have to love me first” he replied then walked off.

 

It stunned my heart and ears which caused my gut to turn in knots but we couldn’t be upset because it was the truth. 

Even though out of the blue could’ve easily been the winner by default but he stepped up because he wanted his chance to answer the question.

 

‘When you really and truly love someone it’s no more I or me, it’s us.  From the first day I laid eyes on you I’d already traded my life for yours, and real love never dies.