Meds and love

Just rambling

I take meds to stay sane

I take meds to sleep 

I take meds for anxiety 

The sleep meds work

Anxiety meds with alcohol 

I don't remember s**t

But my girlfriend does

Man does that piss her off

So I don't mix anymore

Anxiety meds are "PRN"

Means "as needed"

So I don't take them everyday

When I was using steroids

I took more anxiety meds 

Juicing winds your a*s all up

I drank more too 

I felt indestructible is why

Steroids will do that to you

My girl didn't like that either 

So I'm off steroids right now

I've lost a good 25 lbs

and I'm much weaker 

I don't like that at all 

I like being gigantic

and lifting stupid heavy weights 

so the temptation to go back on 

is always beating around my head

But I promised I'd train clean

So that's what I have to do 

That's what you do in a relationship

You compromise  

Author's Note

Compromise is a HUGE part of a relationship. Never forget that kids

Reviews

[Harmony-Lee]

So honestly written. You here so much about female body images and insecurities, it's great to see a males out there :-)
Addiction is so hard. Meds, yeah go off them, if you're strong, got the drive to achieve and have the support you'll get there :-)
It's the thoughts, the mind, that's the hardest, how do you get through other addictions ? anorexia, self harm etc etc

[Baby Ricochet]

Fer Sure. Thanks Lee

[TL Boehm]

there is compromise and there is what I call "settling for less" and I often wonder if the other party in my relationships did just that.

[Annabelle Lee]

Yeah people will tell you that from the beginning and you never listen. At least in my experiences. But hey, I'm just a teenager.

[Baby Ricochet]

That is true, the not listening part

[Troy Henson]

So very true mate.

Its a 2 way street.

[Baby Ricochet]

thanks troy

[Debbie_Philly]

Compromise is a huge part... very true.... I have Anxiety... it does suck :( Great write my friend !!

[Baby Ricochet]

thank you Debbie

[Debbie_Philly]

Your welcome !! :)

[Draven]

I know what you mean. I am stopping my addiction for my girl too. At first it was hard, then it got easy, now it's hard again. I make it. It haunts me but when it comes knocking I whisper her name over and over.

[Baby Ricochet]

Whatever works is good. Thanks bro

[Pryde Foltz]

Compromise, hey??? A very brave and revealing write. Be good to yourself, baby.

[Baby Ricochet]

You too. Thank you Pryde

[Pryde Foltz]

These days … its mostly Earl Grey, for me.

[Rita L. Sev]

Been married almost 22 years... you better believe there's been compromises... and your girl is looking out for you - another important ingredient in a relationship - have the other person's health and best interests at heart. Your story here serves as a great reminder, Mark.

[Baby Ricochet]

Yes she does. Thank you Rita

[willweb]

You are exactly right sir. Every relationship has two sides and compromise is what keeps then evenly together. I really enjoyed this poem and the message today.

[Baby Ricochet]

thank you will

[nigrum homonculus]

always gotta find the middle ground, no matter the sacrifice. can't say i was on gear but i understood what you meant when you didn't feel like a beast after it. i had that after i stepped off the protein shake an creatine. you always seem to spark a memory in my head. good write bro

[Baby Ricochet]

Thanks for stopping by. It's great to here from you again after all this time.

[nigrum homonculus]

likewise with you. i miss reading your work. lets hope i'm actually here for good.