stuck

Where I've been lately

I'm stuck here again 

Memories I can't control 

The meds don't help

I'm tired of therapy 

What was expected of us 

They never told us 

How to live with it 

When your inner child

is horrified 

By what you did 

What do you tell him 

When It's not okay

It's what it feels like 

A terrified child 

who will never be

okay

Reviews

[Pryde Foltz]

When your inner child
is horrified
By what you did
What do you tell him
When It's not okay
It's what it feels like
A terrified child
who will never be
okay

War is as old as human existence that doesn't make it any less painful. Literally million of men and some women have been where you are. If you can forgive all those who came before you, you must forgive yourself. You didn't know any better. Hold that inner child dear and soothe him. You carrying around the guilt only adds to the pain of war. Feel better, friend.

[Corset]

People do what they have to do when the choice is not theirs to make. You followed orders, and you had to, not because you would get thrown in the stockade but because if you didn't your a*s would be on the ground or beheaded, or blown into tiny bits by a 6 year old child strapped, it's called survival, it's called self defense, it's called covering your buddies a*s so you both stay alive. That's what you say to yourself, when you have to do something you know you don't have to do but the situation demands complete and utter compliance to the rules of survival.

[Marie]

Nenories don't have to be lived with; they have to be left behind. Tell your inner child that it may not be okay, but it's done and it's time to move on.

[A. Amos]

Man this poignant and felt your pain in thses words...

[melissa]

This is a sad poem but you did amazing job writing this poem keep up the great work and keep them coming

[Inda]

You made me sigh in a very frustrated and saddening way. This is though to read as I am sure it's though to post so thank you.

[Lyn Anderson]

This gave me shivers. To bare your soul like this, it is courageous. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and your no holds barred way of writing. It is heart wrenchingly real.

[Vidya Bacchus]

The anguish and the intense feeling of helplessness is so potent in this pen.It is hard to live with the things that you have done even if you are told you did them for the right reasons.I hope you feel better Baby .Some days are harder than others but then they do get better eventually.That is all we can hope for I guess.

[Tai Ryens]

Certainly a heavy topic, so haunting to the reader that I cannot even imagine what horrors you must be going through. The only things I can give is a pat on the back and a thanks for your service in the military. It's unfortunate and downright dreadful what you must go through, but I indeed commend you for your service.
Well expressed, I do hope you are able to recover, at least temporarily, from that which must haunt you. Stay strong.

[Honey-Bee]

Wow! Such terrible tormenting mental anguish and suffering. I only wish I knew what to tell you and how to take the pain away. I probably could not even begin to imagine the terror and suffering you endured. Only thing I can tell you is pray and keep pressing toward a new dawn. Thanks for your service and for sharing!

[jacob erin-cilberto]

oh man this is heavy...and that pic of the baby...the constant memories that haunt...won't let go...

keeps us stuck in a moment we just want to forget and move on from.

wickedly good poem, Mark.

jacob