My Christmas Girl

A self reminder

The Violence lurking in my past
The dark tales of the gun
I never told her everything
The things I've seen and done

She's seen me wallow in my wounds
From nightmares in my sleep
She's seen me sob without control
From secrets that I keep

And she's always been there for me
Of times I've gotten sick
Overwhelmed by blood and honor
of memories I keep

The Holidays are here again
and she's my Christmas girl
She's full of smiles and full of joys
The way that she unfurls

I'd rather die than let her down
Burdened by violence past
My secrets they can rest awhile
Times of a different caste

I've got to be my happy self
So she can understand
No matter what I did before
I'm still her loving man

Reviews

[Matching Socks]

Very heartfelt poem Baby.
We put a brave face on around the holidays for those we love.
Their happiness is everything. I felt this one.

[Baby Ricochet]

Christmas ain't exactly my favorite time of year but I live with little miss Chris Kringle so I gotta put a on it positive for her. No way am I gonna rain on my girl's Christmas parade.

[ANTO]

Im just a tad late but hey this is relevant all over again BR!! So I hope all the last bit still applies and let me be the first to wish you both Happy Christmas - this year - 2014 ! Yay!
I hope this was as therapeautic as I imagine it was at the time mate.

[Baby Ricochet]

Thanks Anto

[TL Boehm]

ah yes, a bit of a lift from you. Well penned.

[Baby Ricochet]

thank you TL

[emmajoy]

Not only is this poetry: it's sincere and beautiful. You already have Happy Everything!

[Baby Ricochet]

Thank you Emma

[s y e]

This is beautiful, Mark! I hope you both have a brilliant Christmas!

[Baby Ricochet]

Thank you Noodle. Merry Christmas

[Inda]

Great piece, we see this dualism present in us all, the bad and the good in us and the struggle to cope. Great write!

[Baby Ricochet]

Thank you inda

[LovingJoy]

A deep piece to read, it is easy, "easy" to feel what you are saying here, the ideas are conveyed well and with a lot of empathy for the situation and people involved, weird to say but a great read.

[Baby Ricochet]

Thank you very much

[Mark]

Thank you for sharing this.

[Baby Ricochet]

Thank you for reading mark

[Tom]

The subconscious mind can have the most debilitating effect on our everyday normal lives but with the love and understanding from those close to us, normal service will resume!

A profound, sincere write, love conquers all and will exorcise even the most malevolent demons at work !

[Baby Ricochet]

thank you Tom

[KAOlmsted]

D'awwwwww...I'm all weepy here, Baby! Merry Christmas to you both! xoxo

[Baby Ricochet]

Merry Christmas Kimmer

[KAOlmsted]

Thank you, Baby.