the rhino & cougar conundrum

fair enough to say that when

s/he got into it, when she dove

head-first into the pool of passion with

both eyes closed & arms outstretched,

that there was an inherent excitement

to be found attractive at his/her age

by someone so much younger &

all the fantasies in the head

from carnal sex to just getting to

stroll down the street with

this young thang hangin’ off her/his

shoulder (and the whole world seems to be

jealous)

run rampant,

as the romance gets off with a bang,

banging like bunnies persists &

s/he feels reinvigorated,

for this new young person in his/her life

becomes an integral part in

the beefing up of what had been a falling

self-esteem,

a failing personal value, a

slave to the depreciation of age &

this culture that wants absolutely nothing

to do with.

 

and as time passes, s/he even begins to think

that this could become something real &

that all the doubts of his/her friends

may not be proved correct &

after convincing him/herself that these very

doubtful friends are in fact

jealous,

s/he quietly, secretly, tells him/herself

that quintessential delusion…

that this person just might be

“the one.”

 

quick came the wandering eyes &

the insecurities came bubbling,

with an oozing jealousy of everyone around &

the double whammy stirring in the mind

that this young thang that said rhino/cougar

had hooked, could simply leave one day

with the rest of their lives ahead of them,

having burned away “the prime of one’s life”

like the proverbial candle wick.

 

so in fear, the rhino/cougar begins to do things

that they never thought they would,

in order to “keep” the young thang in their lives---

in the bedroom, they bow to the will of their

young lover, in the bar, they half to at least meet

them half-way under the table &

if need be, they must lose weight, dress in revealing

clothing, mingle with every friend, no matter

how dirty or strung out,

so much so, that the rhino/cougar lives in eternal worry

that their days are numbered,

wondering that if they get out now,

that they’ll have enough pizzazz to hook somebody else,

or that they will have to push themselves to the

furthest limit, in order to stay in this.