looser

tried

so

very

hard

(really

one

watching

objectively

from

the

sidelines

might

have

said

that

s/he

was

trying

to

hard

in

fact)

to

be

something

that

s/he

was

not,

by

sucking

up

&

sucking

off

the

man

in

order

to

be

loved

by

the

mass,

in

order

to

be

“the

next

big

thing,”

in

order

to

be

cared

about,

when

all

along

the

way

s/he

lost

more

&

more

of

him/herself

in

the

doing,

until

one

day

s/he

said

f**k

it

to

everything

&

suddenly

in

the

ceasing

of

all

giving

a

s**t,

his/her

art

was

oh

so

much

better,

his/her

sleep

was

so

much

more

satisfying,

the

food

even

had

a

better

taste

&

all

began

to

come

easier

with

a smooth

flow.