cruel restraint

wanting what cannot be had,

wanting to satisfy

raging desire,

wanting to throw it all to the

wind &

join the club with

id,

twisting & turning into

oblivion---

but consequentially,

the conscience comes

bearing down &

forces one into a place of

cruel restraint,

where the body is well aware

that the possibilities are

endless,

but the mind knows that

nothing is possible

without an aftermath

that well outweighs any

fun that could be had---

what would force one to

plummet down into

depths that they can

hardly imagine at this

point in time,

prior to what could be

described by an objective

onlooker as

self-destructive

behavior.