The person I want to be

A Poem by Olivier

Who am I...?

Is smart and caring

Compassionate and bold

Daring and resolved

Resilient and wise

But I

I am of a different build

Of a different world entirely

My thoughts are so completely opposite from who I want to be.

I try to be the change I want to see, but it is so different from who I am, who I feel like

I know that this is who I am. That I procrastinate and am indecisive. Am too optimistic and hopeful.

But that’s the other side. I am part of who I want to be.

I want to be optimistic and hopeful. But I want to be rid of my self that tries in school. My self that enjoys pranking people. I don’t want to be smart. I don’t want to disappoint people with who I am not.

I would much rather become who I want to be.

And show everyone who was dissaapointed that my way works just find. I want to walk the lesser traveled path, or the never traveled path.

It scares me.

Tonight, I couldn’t find the being inside me that wanted to save the world. Wanted to help people and make people smile. It was gone. I was thinking about school and work and chores and to-dos.

That is not who I want to be.

Do I change.

Abandon entirely the path set out for me.

Forge my own way in the world

Figure out my own path

Do I follow the path that has been set out for me

Do I become what society wants me to become

Am I strong enough to bring the willpower to abandon everything.

My entire life.

To convert

Is it possible

Yes

It must be

It has to be

If it is not,

Il make it so

I will.

I swear.

© 2018 Olivier

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Kelsey

The conflict of deciding who I am is something I can relate to all too well. I feel as if I'm not doing enough, that my life is being lived in vain. So, this poem really spoke to me.

A few lines could use some adjusting, grammatical speaking (ie spelling errors and such), but if this is a first draft, well done :)