Not EvenA Poem by Livi MariottiThere is always a way, even when you think nothing will work anymore.Sometimes, More so than anybody would ever wish for, I feel so unbelievably down under. So depressed, I thought it was impossible for anyone to feel like this, and I sure wish it was. Not even my favorite things in the world can heal me, I feel. Not even the music I used to love, The songs that give me an explainable rush, they don't give me the same impact as they used to. Not even a hot shower, That washes away my troubles, I still feel dirty when I turn off the water. I even wait until the hot water turns cold, and I still don't feel refreshed when I step out. Not even the love of my cats, I've been away from home, where my cats live, for months now. I feel like that love has been taken from me. Not even conversation with my friends, I feel like I will become more distant with them as I speak. I don't want to lose more friends from my troubles. Although I just want to be happy with them, they don't believe me. They just think I am toxic. It digs me even deeper. I can't even see the hole I've dug myself into now. Not even reading, I feel lonely, so maybe curling up with a good book can heal a wound or two. I have a book in my hand, I must not be alone with these words. Though then I realize I have no patience to sit down and let the words come to me, for my head is too busy with the s**t going on in there. I had to say that, because it really is true. Not even writing, when I finally decide to put pencil on paper, I lose my want to write what was on my mind. It was even hard to have the energy to write these words. I remember, I used to have so much energy. I wonder if I sucked everything out of my battery. "Olivia, you changed." I was told. Yes, I am hearing you. I did. I did not want to, I wish I did not, but I did. The things that gave me joy aren't the same, I feel empty. There has to be a remedy for this. Not even sleep will let me escape, There is no way out, Is there? All of a sudden, everything is pitch black, until I suddenly see a burst of light. Hyperventilating.... What? Wait... Now I am aware. That was a nightmare, I was trapped, nowhere to go, but now, With a heavy breath and a yawn, I hear the birds chirp. Now, I know, With the thoughts passing by, There is a way, and Not even my moments of entirely lost hope will make me come to a stop.
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3 Reviews Added on July 20, 2016 Last Updated on August 9, 2016 AuthorLivi MariottiFranklin, MAAboutI'm Livi, yet another person living on this world. I hope to make an impact and write my heart away. more..Writing
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