Dear Past

Meh

Dear Past
I’m not going to rely on you anymore
You get it?
I gotta say that I’m done before I let it
Take control of my words and my head
Gotta figure out life before I’ve moved on ahead
And yet it all still seems like a fantasy
When I have your love,
But you’re not next to me!

I can’t keep faking its all part of the act
I’m broken
I hurt you too and can’t turn back
Or focus
On the lights trying to create the path
To reconcile sins of my inner wrath
And now this s**t
Where everyone want to know
What happened as a kid,
To make my heart grow cold?

So I tell them
All of my lies and dreams
I yell it
To make them feel how real it seems
I’m hellish
Never thinking with a positive view
Hardly got what I want
When I sacrificed you
If only I cold forget the things
My secrets
That drain me daily
And that haunt my dreams
My regrets
Always thinking about
What I could’ve done then
And if I had the chance
I’d start over again

I’m sorry that
I been gone so long
This distance
Left me feeling nothing
But feared and harmed
I miss this
Holding hands like children again
Then growing up,
Having dreams and leaving them

I shouldn’t have used my heart so quick
It happens
I shouldn’t be so quick to spit
This rapping
I pushed off emotions
I thought that couldn’t come back
Now I’m sandwiched between
My path and past

So I gotta give up one
And you got the shortest straw
Lets end this
I’d rather follow my path
Than relive this
Now I’m dropping off
All of my memories
As ink on paper
And I’m sending these
Far far away to a place unknown
Where they can read my past
And hold the fear I owned
But now I’m passed past regrets
And keeping secrets too
Gotta make damn sure
I’ll never come back to you!

Author's Note

got pain?