My biggest mistake

This is a poem about the year in between being with the girl of my dreams. I never really told her all I felt about that year we were apart, so I hope this explains what I've come to terms with.

You know its more than just a year ago today

Its a year ago and everyday

Since I left you standing on that path

The path that I sent you down wasn't for your good

But then again mine was full of pain

On any given day

One could simple ask what you were to me

And was simple you were my biggest mistake

But it was you that was the mistake

It was walking into that forest of pain and hate

Full of darkness and self loathing

Leaving my light behind me

In a time that I needed it more than ever

Hidden and scared I continued to walk through life alone

Only to blame you for more than just stealing my heart

Because of you I couldn't have been the same

Its because of you I hated myself for ever leaving

Thinking that you were lost and out of my reach

But in all reality you were within arms reach

A year has pasted

I found my way back to the light of my forest of life

I had realize it wasn't you that was the mistake

It was me

It was my decision to push you away

It was my decision to run and hide

It was my decision that ruined the emotional fabric of my life

All you did was hold my heart in a special place while I was gone

And now we continue to live our lives together

Never to think of the idea of doing it

Once more

 

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

"It was me
It was my decision to push you away
It was my decision to run and hide
It was my decision that ruined the emotional fabric of my life"
All of us learn regret. The above line is true for the all of us. Would be cool if we could take back words and bad actions. Thank you for the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Lady Decaf]

A deeply riveting write. Not sure if some of the words blurred together or if that's just my tears. I love the analogy of a a forest for your life. You're a gifted poet and an even better man than any girl could ask for. I love you