I Was Always Running Scared

I was always running scared

 

When I was with him

Always running away from home

So afraid he might kill me, one day

 

As I look back upon my life I realize

Little did I know of true love

While he drank his bottles of booze

Always he indulged too heavily

You just never knew when he would explode

Sorry I am years later, that I stayed with such a man

 

Ran with my life on several occasions

Until one day, I just kept running without looking back

No one had the right to curse me

No one had the right to hit me

I know that now...

No one, not even my own husband, had that right

God must have spared my life the last time I ran

 

Sometimes, I wonder why I stayed with such a man

Can't believe it was true love, not anymore

An insecure woman I became, at the hands of an abuser

Respect for him, I lost all I'd had, for he treated me like dirt

Each time I visit his grave, I wonder why I stayed with such a man

Damned if I know...