This Silence Is Killing Me

(this silence is breaking my heart)

This silence is killing me

It hurts that you don't love me

But I thought that we were friends

I don't understand what i did

That was so wrong

You said can't take the drama

What drama are you talking about?

I don't understand this at all

I wouldn't do that to you

I am not like that

If it is the drama in my life

That you were referring to

Then perhaps I can understand

I love my grandchildren

So very much

They are not a burden

Not to me

I need to have them in my life

Three of them are in foster care

They are special needs children

One is autistic, two are failure to thrive

They are beautiful

I long for the day we may welcome them home

I pray that day may come

Yes, we are a package deal

Sadly some people can't handle

The excess baggage

I love my family, first and foremost

I cherish my time with them

Anyway, other than this...

I imagine when I became ill and nearly died

Perhaps you couldn't handle that

I know for certain I was on my death bed

Somehow I survived

I believe that faith and prayers

From loved ones and friends helped pull me through

Perhaps there is more here on earth for me to do

Maybe even be friends with you

Not only in your mind

But in your life

Somewhere there must be room

In your heart

To forgive me

For loving you so very much

It is my loss but yours also

For we could make beautiful music together

You and I

Please talk to me again

Be my friend

Sincerely, Debileah

Reviews

[Akshat♥]

Truly amazing piece...
so much trust in it..
Well expressed of thoughts:)

[Katannaism]

This is truly exquisite. Very tragic-Beautifully written too. Enjoyed this very much. :)

[Wicahpi]

may all your wishes and dreams be fulfilled in some form or another. peace n light xo

[deeps]

Such an emotional and sad write here.
Well expressed feelings.