Troubled

my thoughts are tormenting me

i am troubled tonight

wish i could see things in a different light

but tomorrow morning

there will be a hearing

i need to be there

because i love my grandchildren

because i do care

 

i can't bear the thought of losing you

but am i strong enough

to take care

of you

 

my prayers are with your mother tonight

for her peace of mind

come the morning light

 

the pain and suffering

of our manic depression

is causing so much chaos and confusion

it's a driving force tearing our family apart

 

guess one would have to read between the lines

to understand what isn't written here

my daughter called me today

asked me to take care of her children

 

take guardianship over them

until she can get well and have her life back

then just as quickly as the spin of a dime

she changed her mind

 

the children services lady

is quite involved you see

talking about custody

the kids and me

 

she wants me to show up at the hearing

quite early tomorrow morning

i know they want me to take over

this urgent responsibility

 

i just got over having surgery

not quite through my own recovery

it would be at least two weeks i need

to recuperate

 

right now on all of this

i find it so hard to concentrate

 

 

Reviews

[Brenda Sue]

Sitting here with tears in my eyes. I know the feelings you are having and the hard decisions you are having to make. I agree with Carole, God is your strength. My prayers are with you.

This piece is wonderfully penned and I hope it was good therapy of you too.

[Carole]

I relate to this piece right now with some personal family issues. God is your strength and an ever present help in your time of need. He is also mine.

A free flowing masterpiece of anxiety, worry and fear all meshed together in one piece. Our hearts become heavy with a burden or several and though we can be easily crushed under the weight of it/them we look to the one who is stronger and better equipted to handle it. I can't help but think of the Footprints prayer.

I love how you took your every care and you let it roll off of your finger tips in free verse. Very well executed. Heart felt...