This is my gift, this is my curse

this is my cusre
this is my gift
I am the straight gay friend
you treat me as if I were gay
even though I am straight
I mean no offense
it’s just you tell me your secerts
your problems
your woes
you always say “I love you“
but never in the way I want
it’s not like I have ever hidden my feelings
but I’m still the straight gay friend
I been with you always
Through the ups ,The downs
The breakups,The meakups
You know I would bo anything for you
But no
Maybe it’s the way I look
Or talk or act
Whatever it may be
I would gladly change it
But you never seem to notice
When all is well
It’s like I’m not even there
But when something goes wrong
Who stays when everyone else has gone
Who listens to you for hours and hours
Whose sholder is soaked from tears
Who holds you until you feel better
Me the straight gay friend
I would do anyting for you
I keep my heart open
But you already know this
I wonder why
Why not me
I’m always here
Waiting…waiting…waiting
Until your next fight, bad day, or breakup
But I’m not going to always be there
And by the time you relize this
It will be to late
I’ll be gone forever
Tthis is my gift
This is my curse