The enigma came to me
when death was just a novelty.
A hell spawn with Capricorn features
using my strengths against me,
giving me the power
to dig my own grave
with my idle hand.
Those eyes so sublime
pierced my heart like a dagger
and drained it till my bones
turned to stone,
then used my corpse
as the threshold to the underworld.
But how easy it is to forget!
The soul can follow in limbo
To a place where pleasure and pain have no other purpose
Than to remind me of what it is that I have lost
Sisters of fire lure with serpents
That bear their scorn with banshee lamentations
I hear them all
Curse me
Mock me
Seduce me in flame
I trace the name of my sins
In ashes beneath my feet
Here, foolishness feasts with vultures..we are all to blame
I willingly let the circle of fire
Engulf my body
So the ashes of my flesh can be used
To write my eulogy on parchment paper.
Then my scorched bones
Can become the stepping stones
Upon which arch angels can perform
A macabre dance.
May the damnation of this sacrifice
Be the gate way to salvation…
The light before me becomes blinding.
Ghostly eyes adjust to see…
A stairway made of hot coals.
In front of what is now only a shard
Of what I was
Ravens circulate
"Look at your destiny."
I procrastinate
Before me...no shelter from death upon death
Behind me...no angel is patient enough to hear my distress
So it shall continue...eternally
I shall fall
Lament with no liberation as the demon calls
Here, time sneers in stagnant water
Holds no empathy as I falter in mud
Here, I shall forever walk upon blades.