If Only

 

Dreams of late… silent movies

that speak so deeply to me,

I only wish they were in black and white

so as to bring complete clarity

of the ghosts in my mind.

These constant vibes

passing through closed parts of my heart

are more damaging

then the original condemning

that blocked the free flow of emotions.

In the moments of tender thoughts

I feel a hand around my throat

that renders me speechless

yet my reflection

is nothing more

then pale skin biting a lip.

Even emotional moisture

flows like a waterfall

beneath the surface

like a hidden paradise.

 

If only to see

through a dogs eyes

then maybe time

wouldn’t go so slow

when life has me beaten and caged.

 

If only my heartbeats

weren’t pinpricks

bleeding me dry of passion

in cruel fashion.

 

If only my dreams

were an escape from reality.

 

 

 

Author's Note

Nothing to do with my current mental state and probably not what you think its about.

Reviews

[emmajoy]

I read your beautifully presented poem then read the reviews .. strange that I thought of it as being a confirmation that while you remember being trapped, you've dreamed of letting go or, seeing how it would be to let go .. that the hurt's there but you see it for what it is. Dreams are our day arguing with our state of mind, straightening out, juggling and -this is some dream.

Rightly or wrongly, you've touched nerves and expressed strong emotions ..

(Methinks the where in last line should read were)

[LonelySoul]

If only my dreams
where an escape from reality.

oh but they are my friend,they are...LonelySoul

[Valentine]

My dreams are always like stories about strangers..I think I would rather have thisw life with Christ..lol..Valentine

[Tracie Skarbo]

hmmm i read pain and lonliness, and perhaps a questioning as to why the repeating patterns. I like the references to the dog...the caged feelings, the dog years, being beaten. I think this is all about your feelings of being unjustly treated...Great job

[THERISA]

So much
Is conveyed
In so few letters
of the phrase
"if only..".

Perchance to dream alittle
Of the darker side
We keep under lock and key
Giving our fears
An outlet to leave
If only for a moment of peace.

Thank you, for sharing this poem with us, Dale.

[Poeticpiers]

They say that dreams are your minds method of sorting and storing the days events.
The experts that is but true to form experts opinions are seldom accurate.
Perhaps dreama are our reality and our so called lives are dreams

[Silent Kim aka mizmetap..]

Hummm... I know about want to escape into a dream world, but reality is so interesting. Nice twist and turns through out the poem, nice flow.

[An owl on the moon]

There is an overwhelming sense of pain here... gripping the throat.. strangling hope and dreams.. This is a powerful reflection of those things that can overwhelm us, whether we sleep or wake. Deeply moving piece...

[An Ordinary Woman]

Thanks for the note, because I was worried at first. I enjoyed this poem. Sweet and well written, sad too.

[Tina Kline]

Seems like words written about some sort of struggle, perhaps an emotional one. I really like this, it could mean different things to different people, that's the magic of word sometimes.