The Future

its there

The Future

i was always told to follow my dreams and follow my heart
but what if my heart is scared of the future
and my dreams feel like theyll tear me apart

i tell myself theres no perfect path but i wish that there still could be
a way for things to go how i want
to experience no pain, nothing to hurt me

i know ill realize that something is wrong
cause happiness never seems to last
everything turns against me and theres no way to forget the past

as time goes on it seems worse and worse
every mountain a lie
and every valley a curse
i cant sleep at night, theres nothing left in my eyes

i think i only know darkness, i cant see past the night
but i can only feel darkness since i knew the warmth of the light

im missing pieces to my puzzle
and learned to accept that theyre gone
now im lost in my heart
cause im scared to go on

rebuilding the past me or finding a future
every new thing hurts and every memorys a suture

the pieces of my life wont fit together but i try to hang on
but i feel so alone and the confidence is gone
i only remember my fears and cling to what i did wrong

now theres nowhere to go
my dreams got lost in my head
im angry at the world
and my heart feels like lead
i try to love my friends and my family
but i think im better off dead

another day passes
though im still left in chaos
i think since i have no future
theres no path to stray off

theres a jungle of problems
to cut myself through
but behind the canopy of lies
is my hard to reach truth

no pain is forever and life isnt stagnant
i have to find my pieces
cause i dont know the good yet

if i find myself through the years
i can follow my heart
rid myself of the fear of falling apart

no matter the struggles
and no matter how long
i have to have faith that my life will go on

Author's Note

ignore writing conventions, i wrote this on my phone

Reviews

[Psychotic Lily]

I really love this poem, because it speaks to me on a personal level. Like there's a future but you still have doubts if you can make it. Honestly, It's a beautiful read. Love it! I would want to read more.