i miss you

about losing a grandfather

as i saw you take your last breath, i know you wanted to let go, to be free, a part of me wanted you to stay with me here on this planet forever, another part of me just wanted the suffering to end for you. as you took your final breath, my world stopped, my heart stopped beating, my limbs went numb and the only thing i saw was you lying there in the hospital bed, gone from the world, free at last. as i saw you lying in your coffin, dressed nicely, hair combed, i could not feel a thing, i could not cry, i froze up because to see the man who was such a huge part of my childhood as a cold corpse is enough to just destroy you, and that's exactly what it did, destroyed me and i'm not sure i can ever fully recover. 

Author's Note

death