"my life is a source of pain"

my life is a source of pain that

destroyed not only my confidence

but the dream of a happy

childhood.  there were moments

of dispair yet nothing imbued my

heart's emotions.  the availability of

pure spirits from above gave me

the power to explore the minds

of empty thoughts.  then grew

into what i'm now afraid of, the

coyness of a talkative girl.  burning

flames of the fire from beyond

flew beyond its point and burnt

my finger nails but then knew nothing

much about it.  trapped in a dark

mind with no light to new beginnings

i began to cry an utmost awful cry that

awakened the waves of the ocean and the

dusty winds blew right back to my eyes and

blood come out of my heart through the eyes.