Bipolar

A conversation between lovers

 

I love you but…

I’m scared.

Scared of who?

Scared of you.

Scared of your

Magical, fantastical eyes that throw me into

A blind vision of we.

In love with everything I can see

Everything I can’t see

From now until eternity.

Scared to death of you.

Scared to life of losing you.

 

I love you but…

I’m worried.

Worried about?

Worried that the lock that loves and

Jealously guards

Your heart

Like me, it stands strong,

No matter how hard I try. 

I’m worried that you’ll lie, you’ll cheat,

And I’ll be oblivious me,

Loving you so much I haven’t noticed

That you’ve decided to leave. 

 

I love you but…

I can’t.

Can’t what?
Can’t think of, even consider

Letting you back in. 

You didn’t just break my heart,

You ruined me.

Blackened my soul

Desecrated my hope.

Yet those eyes like

Milk chocolate dreams

The curves of your body and soul

The road less traveled

I still want to put my name on that road

I want your name on mine.

I can’t stop wanting you.

 

That smile of

A thousand shining stars

Melt the thoughts from my mind

Punish me into submitting

To this love that I can not be rid of.

 

I love you but…

I won’t.

Won’t?

Won’t ever liberate the

Tranquility that breezes through

Tossing my tortured soul

Feeding the flashing blaze of

Crushing desire that I have for you. 

You frustrate me so.

I want to watch you leave me,

Watch you walk away from me

(from us)

But I won’t. 
I grab you and pull you back to me

Because you’re all I need.

You kill me only to revive me

Only to kill me again.

Wicked splendor

Tortuous beauty

Of your love for me

My love for you.

Unending days of erratic

Lows and highs.

Our bipolar love.

With you, I could never be bored.

I couldn’t imagine my life

without you in it. 

 

Reviews

[Charisma Moonfairy]

That's one of the most beautiful things I have ever read and it makes me wonder if that is how my wife feels about me when I am going through one of my bipolar mixed episodes. There were several lines that grabbed me but

"I grab you and pull you back to me
Because you're all I need.
You kill me only to revive me
Only to kill me again.
Wicked splendor
Tortuous beauty
Of your love for me
My love for you.
Unending days of erratic
Lows and highs.
Our bipolar love."

Is the one that caught me the most, it reminds me of my relationship so much it's scary. Great read and great write

[Constance L. Hartwell]

what a creative way of expressing what many of go through in love. As I read this poem I pictured myself reciting those words to my reflection. That shows that you are able to paint pictures with your words. I loved the flow! Actually, free verse is my favorite type of poetry. Kudos.

[The Reticent Receptioni..]

*dies* exquisite.
this is right on the money. excellent write.

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

Very interesting and creative... capturing how our differences bring us closer yet can drive us a part and how our insecurities can hurt the one we love... very deep and truly raw emotions displayed with great care.

[Winter McPherson]

Oh give me boredom! Rather then a love like this! You captured it so well here. The agony and the ectasy - but mostly agony....

"Yet those eyes likeMilk chocolate dreamsThe curves of your body and soulThe road less traveledI still want to put my name on that roadI want your name on mine.I can't stop wanting you."

Once again your writing is so captivating and rich. Beautiful write!

[bluessadmood]

ohh dear thats nice,how lovely..
love you but scared ..those magical eyes,killing me and drive me blind in love with everything i can see..
everything i cant see from here to eternity,you are my life ,my death ,so afraid of losing you..and then i die
i love you ,but still worried,of your lies ,of your cheat..loved you so much and you decided to leave
cant let you back,you just broke my heart,you ruined me,my soul is black,still love that body and soul
want to put your name on mine,that smile like a thousand shining stars,oh this love i could never get rid of..
when you leave..you kill me just to revive me again,oh you wicked splendour,hideous beauty..
ohh those non ending days of lows and highs,but yet with you could never be bored..
how you color my life,my life is nothing without you..
what great emotions,how deep how nice
lovely write..