Bipolar

A conversation between lovers

 

I love you but…

I’m scared.

Scared of who?

Scared of you.

Scared of your

Magical, fantastical eyes that throw me into

A blind vision of we.

In love with everything I can see

Everything I can’t see

From now until eternity.

Scared to death of you.

Scared to life of losing you.

 

I love you but…

I’m worried.

Worried about?

Worried that the lock that loves and

Jealously guards

Your heart

Like me, it stands strong,

No matter how hard I try. 

I’m worried that you’ll lie, you’ll cheat,

And I’ll be oblivious me,

Loving you so much I haven’t noticed

That you’ve decided to leave. 

 

I love you but…

I can’t.

Can’t what?
Can’t think of, even consider

Letting you back in. 

You didn’t just break my heart,

You ruined me.

Blackened my soul

Desecrated my hope.

Yet those eyes like

Milk chocolate dreams

The curves of your body and soul

The road less traveled

I still want to put my name on that road

I want your name on mine.

I can’t stop wanting you.

 

That smile of

A thousand shining stars

Melt the thoughts from my mind

Punish me into submitting

To this love that I can not be rid of.

 

I love you but…

I won’t.

Won’t?

Won’t ever liberate the

Tranquility that breezes through

Tossing my tortured soul

Feeding the flashing blaze of

Crushing desire that I have for you. 

You frustrate me so.

I want to watch you leave me,

Watch you walk away from me

(from us)

But I won’t. 
I grab you and pull you back to me

Because you’re all I need.

You kill me only to revive me

Only to kill me again.

Wicked splendor

Tortuous beauty

Of your love for me

My love for you.

Unending days of erratic

Lows and highs.

Our bipolar love.

With you, I could never be bored.

I couldn’t imagine my life

without you in it. 

 

Reviews

[Charisma Moonfairy]

That's one of the most beautiful things I have ever read and it makes me wonder if that is how my wife feels about me when I am going through one of my bipolar mixed episodes. There were several lines that grabbed me but

"I grab you and pull you back to me
Because you're all I need.
You kill me only to revive me
Only to kill me again.
Wicked splendor
Tortuous beauty
Of your love for me
My love for you.
Unending days of erratic
Lows and highs.
Our bipolar love."

Is the one that caught me the most, it reminds me of my relationship so much it's scary. Great read and great write

[Jessica Elaine Stevens ..]

Sounds like every single one of my relationships hah. This perfectly illustrates the frustration of wanting to trust and love but always getting hurt in return...
Ah the ways that fear, jealousy and heartbreak can come between two people who have only affection for one another.
My Favorite:
"I love you but�
I'm worried.
Worried about?
Worried that the lock that loves and
Jealously guards
Your heart
Like me, it stands strong,
No matter how hard I try.
I'm worried that you'll lie, you'll cheat,
And I'll be oblivious me,
Loving you so much I haven't noticed
That you've decided to leave"

Love love love love

[Salvatore Buttaci]

Congratulations for winning the Heartbreak-Hotel contest!

[Shellie]

Oh my god i feel exactly the same. This is brilliant, so going into my fave library....and i'm picky! LOVE it!

[Charles D. Moorer]

Great piece. Love is a bipolar episode, some times quite sane and rational, then at other times a racous, conflicted, green-eyed thing. You have managed to cpature it in all of its grace and disgrace. Well done.

[Kena Dawn Augustine]

That's really good!! i loved that. the title "bipolar" caught me, cause i know what that's all about, but the poem was metaphorical of a relationship's up and down's, how it can be bipolar. i loved that concept! very creative. and....i have felt what you felt in this poem, many many times, and when i can relate to the poem, it makes it a good piece indeed.

[passion]

I'm worried that you'll lie, you'll cheat,
And I'll be oblivious me,
Loving you so much I haven't noticed
That you've decided to leave.

Girl, bye. You killed it on that one. Love can so do that to you and when you're really gone, you really miss the writing on the wall. That piece of perfection right there? I'm sold. It's a wrap. The whole piece was fluid and I really got it but I'm just so stuck on this 1 stanza! Absolutely amazing. That's a poem in and of itself. WELL DONE, my friend.

[bey]

very sensual write. sensual and sexy to me. full of passion and composed well. i was dragged into the center of it. felt like stepping into a mind and reading its walls.

sincerely, well done.

-b

(oh, the title was on point too.)

[Brianna Brie]

I love you but�
I can't.
Can't what?
Can't think of, even consider
Letting you back in.
You didn't just break my heart,
You ruined me.
Blackened my soul
Desecrated my hope.
Yet those eyes like
Milk chocolate dreams
The curves of your body and soul
The road less traveled
I still want to put my name on that road
I want your name on mine.
I can't stop wanting you.

You kill me only to revive me
Only to kill me again.
Wicked splendor
Tortuous beauty
Of your love for me
My love for you.
Unending days of erratic
Lows and highs.
Our bipolar love.
With you, I could never be bored.
I couldn't imagine my life
without you in it.

What a great title and theme!!! It is a mixed up love...a battle of wanting it and not wanting it. The ending is so full of passion, excitement and energy! I really, really like this one. It speaks!

[Just Cat]

Wow....
Perfect description of love. Of love in its beauty, its dark times. Beautiful and perfectly written.
I'm amazed how you interlace the two perspectives of love in one poem. I love the contrasts in this piece, amazingly spot on.
Love to read more.
Keep up the amazing work, you're very talented.

[LisetteCanWrite!]

Oh but isn't love truly bipolar.. do we not all feel all these things from time to time.. well written and thought out with great flow!

I love you but�I'm scared.Scared of who?Scared of you.Scared of yourMagical, fantastical eyes that throw me intoA blind vision of we.In love with everything I can seeEverything I can't seeFrom now until eternity.Scared to death of you.Scared to life of losing you.

Love can be so scary when you first realize especially.. the fear of saying it then always the occassional fear of loosing that person.. fantastical eyes.. love that phrase! Keep writing.. true talent here!! =)