Contentious

I would pull apart my chest
Grasp at my slippery, beating heart
And give it to you.

If only it would mean something.

This mystifyingly frustrating heart,
So confused it couldn't know you were gone and

no longer wanted it.
This cursed heart,

Existed in singular,

unwavering devotion,
Ripping apart my insides
Beating for you
For us.

Supplying me with my lifeblood it also
Reminds me of you
Of us.
Crashing, jolting, relentless waves

of love and passion,
Misspent days, taken for granted by my mind.
But my heart remembers it all.

My mind and my heart,
They battle each other:
My heart wanting the release and acceptance to love
(and be loved);
My mind wanting the freedom to not feel,

The choice to choose, full of reluctance.

I would pull apart my chest
To only try and hold onto that

blissfully ignorant 

Hopeful heart of mine
And give it to you.
It belonged to you anyway.

If only it could mean something.

Reviews

[Brjden (Bridge-Den) Cre..]

Oh, how I wish I could do the same thing to some "passer byer"! I wanted to shout "YES" at so many moments here given our compatible states of relationship hell. You described it perfectly....

"My mind and my heart,
They battle each other:
My heart wanting the release and acceptance to love
(and be loved);
My mind wanting the freedom to not feel,
The choice to choose, full of reluctance."

Only someone who's dared loved and lost could write something like this and do it with your clarity!
Great write!

[Here's What I Say]

"It belonged to you anyway.

If only it could mean something."

I empathize. I know the truth of that statement. And no, it didn't mean anything to my ex in the end.

Even unrequited love has its rainbow. It always sucks getting rejected (I could write a whole book on that), but once again, I've been reminded that even unrequited love is a gift. Love is love, right? I love the vibrant, visceral imagery in here. Excellent job.

[anonymous]

Good stuff! Thanks for the review by the ways =] You totally got the concept!

[Tiana]

"My mind and my heart,
They battle each other:
My heart wanting the release and acceptance to love
(and be loved);
My mind wanting the freedom to not feel, The choice to choose, full of reluctance"

This stanza hit home for me! Wow! How I know that feeling well. When your mind say's "no" and your heart say's "yes." Wonderful poem! Hugs

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

My mind and my heart,
They battle each other:
My heart wanting the release and acceptance to love
(and be loved);
My mind wanting the freedom to not feel,
The choice to choose, full of reluctance.

My favorite stanza, cause that is the never ending battle... its always Armageddon with those two... very emotional work, love can be so confusing at times... your piece really captures just how draining it can be.

[The Purple Kazoo]

ooh, this is good. you capture the essence of the heart as it pertains to romance. the last line drives the point home, "if only it could mean something." ah, if only...i'm getting to know emotions that i've never felt. nice job; it's not every day that a poem can do that.

[R.Z.M.]

I love how you call the heart slippery, as if it's hard to grasp (because it is, very much so!) :/ reminds me of past heartbreak too, great job!