Message to a former friend

Voices come to taunt me,
They haunt me in my dreams,
Saying words of what I've done,
An how things might have been,

If things had been a little different,
If I'd gone another route,
Or tried a little harder,
To make you see the truth,

But I couldn’t hack it,
I couldn’t stand the pain,
I ran away from you,
An now I feel the shame,

Maybe others wouldn’t have lasted,
As long as I survived,
Perhaps I did my best,
To keep my friend alive,

But I had problems of my own,
Things I had to do,
I had to worry about,
My living in this world,

Still I have to wonder,
If I did enough to help your fight,
The least I could have done,
Is been there when you died,

Once I saved your life,
How could I forget?
Maybe if I had stayed,
I could have somehow done it again,

If I'd only known,
Things went so bad so fast,
But I guess I froze you out,
So I didn’t hear your cries,

If somewhere you hear me,
I wanted you to know,
I never stopped caring,
My anger turned aside.

You’re still a brother,
So much more than friends,
I'd have taken the hits for you,
If we could have swapped our lives,

My life is so much better,
Things are going good,
But did I sacrifice something?
In sorting out my life,

I remember the good times,
Football in the park,
Drinking in the Deep End,
Tennis in the dark,

I hope somehow you listen,
That you hear my plea,
My friend I'll always think of you,
And wish you were still here.

Reviews

[Aries]

This is Breathtakingly Beautiful.....full of sorrow and pain....Powerful.......Awesome writing once again!