One Side of Beautiful

Meet me on 

the other side of has been,

because I'm holding it in.

And there's no time to fit in

when I'm falling again 

Meet me on 

the sad side of alone,

when the pain inside's grown

and I cannot hope to atone

for what I've done that's unknown    

I can write rhymes if need be.

I can try to cope with what I see.

You can try to understand but please don't.

If you die I'll get blamed and I won't

have any more chances. I've lost them all.

Now I bang my head against a brick wall.

Jump off a bridge; where will I fall?

If I had a phone, would you ever call?

There's so many questions I'll never discuss

because it's hard to spit s**t with wit unless I cuss.

Turn to whatever I can find that'll light my fire.

But overall I'm still burning with this desire.

And I lay my head down but inside I'm racing.

They tell me to slow down. "Better start pacing."

But I don't understand 'cause the wind's in my ears.

So I'll take the sharp edge and bleed out all the fears.

Meet me 

on the dark side of light,

where everything I say if forthright

but every time I look up it's night.

Maybe I just want an invite

Meet me 

at the smile of hate,

where I'm too upset to debate.

I don't know if I can translate

what I think when my life falls straight.

I'm literally a disaster when I try to go faster.

Strutting around the place like I think I'm my own master.

I can talk about cutting; I can talk about shots.

But it doesn't even matter 'cause I've got all these spots.

And you can't even see them. But I can't cut them loose

They're stuck into my skin. Products of my abuse.

You can't really know me because I don't know myself.

I don't know what I'm saying as I knock over a shelf.

It was full of my awards, my ribbons, and all my praise.

But that praise has got me going nowhere quickly in a daze.

Take them back now before I set them all on fire.

They've done enough to me. They inspire as I aim higher.

But the higher that I shoot the more people call me a flier.

When you fly, you fall, and then you're situation becomes dire.

So to hell with it. I'm hanging and cutting the last wire.

Meet me at the corner of dark.

Burn me so I'll have a spark.

Cut me so I'll bleed some fuel.

Set fire to me and be cruel.

Meet me at the shiny white door.

See me crumpled on the floor.

Kick me as hard as you can.

Leave me where I began.

I been picked up by people that I'll quickly let down.

I've been let down by people that start selling drugs downtown.

And sure enough I'll go visit them at work no matter the time.

To get through another rhyme I need a few hits of that crime.

They expect me to stop it and just quickly turn on a dime.

And I'm trying to impress so I hide it and act sublime.

So no more lies. To all the bad guys,

trust me I'm worse. And I would advise

that you quickly take a break and just drop it.

'Cause if you keep going, you won't ever stop it.

Doesn't matter the addiction. Drugs, sex, alcohol,

jealousy, such rage that you're punching holes in the wall-

all of them get you on fire and all of them get you down.

They won't do a thing to turn around that frown.

As soon as we're all born, we're all just dying.

Seconds tick off our clocks as we sit in bed crying.

This may be hopeless- it's a theme underlying.

The world's gone dark and death is here. I'm not denying.

But picture this with me and use your mind to keep trying:

What if we didn't need our daily fixes to get by flying?

Meet me on the close side of will be.

I'll walk alone and try to set you free.

Just run away now; don't worry about me.

I've been through s**t I could never foresee.

Author's Note

I'll get to everyone's read requests as soon as I can. It's been hard lately but I promise I will. Thank you all for reading very much :) Let me know your thoughts and suggestions below.

Reviews

[A.marie.speaks]

Dark and raw. I related to this very much and I liked the style and set up you used. Great poem!

[Not here]

thank you :) im really glad you enjoyed reading it

[Dani The Unreviewed]

It's an awesome piece of work. powerful, and flows well.
could relate to it, even the cutting...
heh..been more than a month since I've read something from you.
well, 100 points as always. :)

[Not here]

thank you danny :) i appeciate it very much

[Dani The Unreviewed]

no problem :-)

[KittyKatgirl]

This is a really good poem Dante. Hmm I'm thinking of making a top 5 of your poems list lol but that'll be hard to decide because all your poems are really good. I rarely find a poem that I can finish because either I get really bored or get a headache but every poem I read of yours I finish easily with a clear head. Great job and thanks for sharing :)

[Not here]

thank you crystal :) if you ever do let me know. and thats good im glad. i want them to be easy to read. i appreciate your reviews very much.