Shadow Man

Shadow Man

A Poem by Not here

Sometimes we all feel like shadows, unnoticed.
For moments at a time we just want to be quoted
or at least be noted by those who we doted
upon. It's pure bogus for us who are poets
to depend on others opinions of us now.
Even if not poets, none of us will hush down
until the things we want to say are said.
Some of us would even give our daily bread
just to get a chance, a moment in time
where we might, with a little luck, unleash rhymes
and get everybody listening to understand
all the pain and the problems we've been through. My hand
is available to anybody who needs it.
All my days were spent as I freed it.
The shadows I kept inside for much too long,
and I understand now that they came out wrong.
I could have done it differently, maybe made it better
but to be quite honest, one single letter
to you all could never hope to capture the emotions
I felt inside of me, like some witch's potion
it bubbled up and eventually bubbled over
as I sat waiting and watching, four-leaf clovers
in my hand hoping it wouldn't be too bad.
In the end, though, I was just so mad
so I took a sledge-hammer and broke the damn dam,
spraying a flood of water everywhere. Now I am
so much different than I every would have thought.
It seems that after so many years I finally bought
into the mindset of unnatural insanity.
Full of profanity, used to be into Christianity.
Nowadays, I still care just as much for humanity
but the mannerism in which I do it has become full of vanity.
That might as well be my middle name cause my sanity
is leaving me behind forever, goodbye, goodbye!
I hope that on your way you burn, crash, and die!
You, my sanity, were pointless and never helped me along.
No, the only thing you ever did was make me feel wrong.
You got me cheated on, deleted on, and mistreated on.
Now I'm here on the bench that I'm just seated on.
Side of the roads are the most familiar part of town
for me as I continue to travel on down
this path I'm taking, and this path I chose.
I tried to appease the rows of all my foes
but now I know that I could even go
to the ends of the world but they would still not know
how to respond to me, so they would fight and cry
and bite and pinch and eventually kill my soul. Why
are people so mean sometimes? Well, I don't understand
but I know exactly the place where they should go and 
they should stay away from me forever. I'm too busy
trying to get back to me. I'm now dizzy.
I'm just a shadow, walking the world alone.
My homeless home-town neighborhood tone
of my voice is getting a little bit on my nerves.
I'd rather not just try to go and conserve
all the power I have because it will never be enough.
I got a few cards, but I'm no good at calling bluffs
or faking them for that matter. It's much more sad
when i see a homeless person walking up the street, mad.
Headphones on, hood up, rocking to the beat
and I can tell by the way they drag their feet
they'd rather be dead. Yeah, they'd rather be gone
but they're stuck here for one reason or another. As long
as they are alive, they are sad and wasting away.
Everyday they wake up is just another day.
I don't know what I should say, but on the inside
I feel like I belong with them more. I abide
in a state of disaster, with nothing more to say.
I waste away and a way I waste another day
is by sitting here, wishing I could write a rap song,
but instead of a song I write some foolish sing-a-long.
In the end, it's a disaster like the rest.
I want to be quoted as one of the very best,
but the road there is so long and so weary
I might end up falling over, looking teary.
After all, I'm just a shadow in the dust.
No matter what I do, though, I know that I must
carry on walking this road that I chose.
Hopefully, someday, I won't still appose
my mind and my brain and everything else I feel.
To be honest, I don't know if this is real.
Am I anything more than a shadow on the road?
Whatever I am, I'm about to implode.
So watch out world, cause it's all coming down.
Slowly but surely, my shadow is coming around.

© 2015 Not here


Author's Note

Not here
Some days we all feel like a shadow...

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Again with the amazing writing! Haha you continue to impress and make me jealous, my friend. Awesome little story.

Posted 9 Years Ago


Not here

9 Years Ago

thank you alot :) im glad you enjoyed it
Thanks for sharing. You seemed to have found a very vivid way of sharing words from the shadow and you..

Posted 9 Years Ago


Not here

9 Years Ago

thanks :) i really appreciate your reviewing alot, it means alot to me
Wow. This was...wow. I'm a hard person to render speechless, but this completely took my breath away. The way you took a subject that everyone has at one time or another had to deal with and brought it to life with such beauty, it's absolutely fantastic. Thank you for writing this, it's amazing. Please write more! :)

Posted 9 Years Ago


Not here

9 Years Ago

thank you :) i definitely will, and i have lots more if you want to read them
Very beautiful. Very heartfelt. Very honest.

The theme of inadequacy was written so well here, and I think every single person who read this understands where you're coming from, and have felt that way many times. Everyone can relate to it.

And the words you used were thoughtful as well, expressive and not repetitive. Amazing and one of my favorites. Adding it to my library! =D

Posted 9 Years Ago


Not here

9 Years Ago

thank you alot :) im glad you thought so
wow... i really love this poem the depth and the fact that i can relate to it.. awesome work Keep it up

Posted 9 Years Ago


Not here

9 Years Ago

thnk you very much :)
I love this so much. This has to be my favorite thing I've ever read. It's a mixture of feeling lost and confused, while lonely and mad, with a hint of bitter sweetness. It was a privilege to read this piece.

Posted 9 Years Ago


Not here

9 Years Ago

thank you :) im really glad you enjoyed it
you perfectly captured everything it feels like to be a shadow and to live like one. I feel exactly like this often. You understand. an emotion that is more common than it seems, everyone can relate to your words. Extraordinary.

Posted 9 Years Ago


Wow I love it! It's just so perfect in every way, in my opinion.

Posted 9 Years Ago


Not here

9 Years Ago

thank you very much :) i appreciate it
Thesecuts

9 Years Ago

No problem. :)
holy cow I want to quote this whole poem it sums up how I feel everyday I feel unnoticed im falling inlove with ur writing and ur body is wow I have no words for this poem has made me wanna find who made feel this way and punch them in the face u seem sweet and who would want to break ur heart they have lost someone special and cute ..u don't need to rhyme to write a good poem its in ur heart never let anyone say that u cant bc I know u can u don't need to rap to be loved u just need to be u ..sweetie u are amazing I promise that .........

Posted 9 Years Ago


yvo miki

9 Years Ago

ya ik but im a no body
Not here

9 Years Ago

even shadows are somebodys, and your more than a shadow
yvo miki

9 Years Ago

Well thanks for thinking so
david: we all feel like shadows and your writing is honest and raises many questions..at one point you write you want to write a great wrap song and I think you did as well as a good poem. Your thoughts, the freestyle rhymes with your mind going so fast make it a flow so well and you're right too; no matter what we do sometimes we just can't win. There are so many shadow people, your descriptions are good, even when written in a flash, I get it. Keep writing. Thanks again. Dale

Posted 9 Years Ago


Not here

9 Years Ago

thank you very much dale :) i appreciate it alot
Confuser

9 Years Ago

You're welcome david. Great writing!

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Added on May 4, 2015
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