Shadow ManA Poem by Not here
Sometimes we all feel like shadows, unnoticed.
For moments at a time we just want to be quoted or at least be noted by those who we doted upon. It's pure bogus for us who are poets to depend on others opinions of us now. Even if not poets, none of us will hush down until the things we want to say are said. Some of us would even give our daily bread just to get a chance, a moment in time where we might, with a little luck, unleash rhymes and get everybody listening to understand all the pain and the problems we've been through. My hand is available to anybody who needs it. All my days were spent as I freed it. The shadows I kept inside for much too long, and I understand now that they came out wrong. I could have done it differently, maybe made it better but to be quite honest, one single letter to you all could never hope to capture the emotions I felt inside of me, like some witch's potion it bubbled up and eventually bubbled over as I sat waiting and watching, four-leaf clovers in my hand hoping it wouldn't be too bad. In the end, though, I was just so mad so I took a sledge-hammer and broke the damn dam, spraying a flood of water everywhere. Now I am so much different than I every would have thought. It seems that after so many years I finally bought into the mindset of unnatural insanity. Full of profanity, used to be into Christianity. Nowadays, I still care just as much for humanity but the mannerism in which I do it has become full of vanity. That might as well be my middle name cause my sanity is leaving me behind forever, goodbye, goodbye! I hope that on your way you burn, crash, and die! You, my sanity, were pointless and never helped me along. No, the only thing you ever did was make me feel wrong. You got me cheated on, deleted on, and mistreated on. Now I'm here on the bench that I'm just seated on. Side of the roads are the most familiar part of town for me as I continue to travel on down this path I'm taking, and this path I chose. I tried to appease the rows of all my foes but now I know that I could even go to the ends of the world but they would still not know how to respond to me, so they would fight and cry and bite and pinch and eventually kill my soul. Why are people so mean sometimes? Well, I don't understand but I know exactly the place where they should go and they should stay away from me forever. I'm too busy trying to get back to me. I'm now dizzy. I'm just a shadow, walking the world alone. My homeless home-town neighborhood tone of my voice is getting a little bit on my nerves. I'd rather not just try to go and conserve all the power I have because it will never be enough. I got a few cards, but I'm no good at calling bluffs or faking them for that matter. It's much more sad when i see a homeless person walking up the street, mad. Headphones on, hood up, rocking to the beat and I can tell by the way they drag their feet they'd rather be dead. Yeah, they'd rather be gone but they're stuck here for one reason or another. As long as they are alive, they are sad and wasting away. Everyday they wake up is just another day. I don't know what I should say, but on the inside I feel like I belong with them more. I abide in a state of disaster, with nothing more to say. I waste away and a way I waste another day is by sitting here, wishing I could write a rap song, but instead of a song I write some foolish sing-a-long. In the end, it's a disaster like the rest. I want to be quoted as one of the very best, but the road there is so long and so weary I might end up falling over, looking teary. After all, I'm just a shadow in the dust. No matter what I do, though, I know that I must carry on walking this road that I chose. Hopefully, someday, I won't still appose my mind and my brain and everything else I feel. To be honest, I don't know if this is real. Am I anything more than a shadow on the road? Whatever I am, I'm about to implode. So watch out world, cause it's all coming down. Slowly but surely, my shadow is coming around.
© 2015 Not hereAuthor's Note
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