Roses

Roses

A Poem by Not here

Thank you all for coming out.
In my show you will hear all about
insanity, injustices, and most of all me.
There's no need to worry because most of all we
use the things we say just to try
and get a few poor people to not die.
I don't want sit here and tell you all lies;
all of the awards and the accolades are nice.
But what really takes me to my highest highs
is when the words I say come out so precise
that they just take control and they aid
everyone who is still weighed
down by the world on their shoulders 
and spend their entire day dodging boulders.
So take every show I say and just use it.
If you ever find yourself lost and you peruse it
I just hope that it will make a change
even if it is only of a small range.
I just want you all to be okay, okay?
Because no matter what they say, I say
that you can be anything you want to. You too
have a future that's as good as you. I grew
myself into a weed that only destroyed
and so when it was time, they all did avoid
me and my wandering wanderings. I
did unspeakable things that I can't speak. Why
am I so insane that I let it go?
This is my flow
but I do not know
if I can control
what flows out of this hole.
My mouth is so bad
and it just makes me so sad
when I mess up my soul.
I just get out on parole.
So just let me yell
and tell things I will never tell
to anyone else. I can't
work any harder. I pant
everyday of my life
just working to work hard. Strife
is a word that I use too much
because when I don't feel clutch
I fall back onto normal rhymes
that take me back to my child times.
Big or biggest but not bigger
than myself. I hold the trigger.
I c**k it, load it, and shoot it.
They all applaud because I am suited
to make a mess of myself
even while sitting on a shelf.
I jump off and look down below
at all of the faces I know.
I will never commit suicide
but I also won't step aside.
I'm creating my own ride.
But never ever follow suit
because the problems aren't acute.
They are big and growing more
into a menacing menace for sure.
Haha, see when I don't know what to say
I pick a word and say it twelve times in a day?
Menacing menace, but so pretentiously pretending
because some days I'm a wolf in sheep's clothing just blending
in with the common folk of my city.
Look, I'm not looking for anyone's pity.
Nowadays, we all love the intensity
but it seems like we're living in the Ten City.
Ten out of ten, anything less
is considered to be a catastrophic mess.
Is it the media's fault or my own?
There's something inside of us in the zone
where it makes us all want to be more
but every time we get there, it opens another door
only to shut it in our face and scream,
"Haha! You thought you could achieve your dream
by just walking into a doorway slowly?"
Trust me, inside I sure ain't holy.
I'm just a big mess, a concoction of hate.
How are we supposed to live our lives in this state?
I'm working hard, working harder, working hardest.
Then all of a sudden, I fall down the hardest.
At the end of the day, well, the hardest
thing for me to do is get up and look hardest.
My emotionless expressions are sometimes the hardest
so I just pick up a pen and let it out. The hardest
poems that I write sometimes take multiple pens.
I'm talking three, four, five if not more than tens.
I write so hard that it just goes "snap!"
I throw it down onto the ground and I slap
whatever I was working on before.
Pick it up, pull back, throw it out the door.
I'm tired of being at the top of the list
for pity-parties. Now it seems that I've missed
so many opportunities for myself.
Putting on shows like this from my shelf.
They're all throwing roses up towards me,
so many that the only thing I can see
is the really bright color of them all, just red.
To be honest, I'd rather jump off and be dead.
But I just step back and walk to Ten City.
This is my hometown, even if it is s****y.

© 2015 Not here


Author's Note

Not here
I normally don't curse whenever I write, or even say s***, but sometimes I just let it out.
Yeah. What a mess.

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i love this. the pure expression of the battles and struggle of a heart and mind. good writers are a mess inside.

Posted 9 Years Ago


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9 Years Ago

i appreciate you reviewing my writings alot :) thanks. ill check yours out soon
Giving a vent to your emotions is always good.
And I guess I have mentioned previously as well, just how much
I admire the variations you put into a single piece.
Great write!

Posted 9 Years Ago


Not here

9 Years Ago

thanks :) glad you liked it
Not bad, not bad. I like how this is just made up of your thoughts

Posted 9 Years Ago


I like the meaning in this one!
Well done!

Posted 9 Years Ago


Not here

9 Years Ago

thanks emily :)
Let it out, that helps a lot. Nice write, i enjoyed reading it, and really got the feel of it. You're a great writer.

Posted 9 Years Ago


"ll never commit suicide
but I also won't step aside.
I'm creating my own ride"
I loved this so much. This is so true for many, many people. It's highly important to know your self-worth in my opinion, I loved when you were taking about having something food in the future. how you get somewhere in life not just waiting for the right time, actually going after it!!

Posted 9 Years Ago


Not here

9 Years Ago

thanks :) i appreciate the review
xbxbzdvdsv

9 Years Ago

No problem, :D i meant Good** not food..
I rarely curse so all, but it is good to just let it out.. It makes you feel better in the end sometimes. I enjoy your writing. It's always so free with no barriers at all. I like that! Keep writing, David. You're good at it! :)

Posted 9 Years Ago


Not here

9 Years Ago

thank you :) see ur a good reviewer
Cool Girl

9 Years Ago

Youre welcome, and thank you :)
Well david kummer, there's nothing little about the way you write....just free flowing and sometimes I simply just don't where you're going; you do remind me of someone that was a lot of fun; anyway in the end you always pull it together and I like it. Keep writing and thank you so very much. Dale

Posted 9 Years Ago


Confuser

9 Years Ago

Hey, I'm a lady, but hey man will work! LOL - have a great night.:Dale
Not here

9 Years Ago

lol i cal everyone man, sorry man. haha. you too have a great night
Confuser

9 Years Ago

.................................................:DD
Good poem, nice and long, which is great! I like the whole thing.

Posted 9 Years Ago


Not here

9 Years Ago

thank you :) glad you liked it

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