Go Crazy

I care too much, fall too hard.

My whole world breaks and I'm left with scars.

Glimmering like glass, but broken in shards.

My heart is caged and captured behind bars.

So let my world break,

and let the skies fall

because I'm ready to take

anything. Throw it all.

I'm laying awake

and I'm just about to break

so I'm raisin' the stakes

because this world is mine to take.

These are my mistakes to make.

And if I ever let go

of my vengeance versus my foe

I guess I could end the woe

that continually tows

me through the deep unknown

of troubles and these dumb shows.

But whose show is more dumb

than the guy who's lost in the glum?

However as a rule of thumb

there isn't much I could become

without having to succumb

to this insanity in my mind.

I thought that I was too kind

to everyone who did find

that I was too weak to speak.

I turned the other countless cheeks

and they kept slapping countless weeks

after we agreed to disagree

but we went back to where we started, see

because disaster never comes all at one time.

Most of the time it comes when you finally find

happiness in something that you love so much

and you find something you can't help but touch.

So here's a question for all of you who ever died

on the inside when somebody broke your heart and then you cried:

Why is every freaking poem that I write about the same

girl who walked out of my life not too long after she came

into it with wings that seemed angelic at the time

but in fact it turned out she had nothing more for me than lies?

Now I'm really getting into my groove, so sorry if this is long.

If you don't enjoy rapid rhyme rhythms than you can move on and be gone.

But if you stay, and somehow understand what I strive to say

then there is something in yourself that nobody can sway.

You can be amazing if only you give the time

to yourself to find all the possibilities in crime.

Crime? Oops I meant all the things about your life

that you can do to help other people with their strife.

Crime is sorta my thing, 

and to be honest I'm the king

of sneaking around my own house,

quietly quiet like a mouse.

Overprotective parents who wouldn't give a crap

if I suddenly turned into a parrot who could rap.

I mean they got like a billion other kids ok?

And my mom is spending days workin' her butt off so we can stay

in this big old house that we have lived in for so long.

These walls have seen me laugh and cry and try to sing some songs.

I tried to make them understand the pain only I could feel

but the enormities of it all overwhelmed them i fear.

So they left me here alone, drowning in my denial.

I spit out rapid raps and rhymes as if I'm on trial.

But what else am I supposed to freaking do with my time?

Isn't like the fiftieth time I've said that word in my rhyme?

See how repetitive I am when I go along?

"Flip, Flop, Doo, Dop, Here we go again John!"

Who the heck is John? And why is he in my poem?

I mean I've never heard his name before; I don't even know 'im!

I guess this is the part where I go insane.

This could be another masterpiece if only I changed the name...

I guess I'd probably have to rewrite all of those profanities...

Maybe I should go fix those now and make them words like, "Freak, and "Heck," you see

most people don't like it when I speak my mind

because my mind could blow a bomb that's nuclear in size. "Those words don't even rhyme?" you say.

Well who said this was a poem?

I write a new one nearly everyday

so this is the one where I show 'em

the real side of me,

the most free side of free.

'Cause I'm free as can be

while ya'll are trying to see

how I could ever know

all the bold and untold

secrets that I can't show

because they'd call me a fool

drown me in the pool...

Wait, never mind that's New York.

Gangsters everywhere, like pork.

Oops, I mean pigs, my bad again.

Seem a little random to you my friend?

Well that's just me!

Maybe I'm just crazy!

Sometimes I scare me up my own tree!

Set fire to the forestry!

Now it's time to shut down;

my robot fuse is runnin' out.

By robot fuse, I mean robot blood.

Like what vampires drink layin' in the mud?

Whoa, now this is gettin' really forced.

Havin' to force them out like words from a coarse

throat from a dude sittin' on a boat.

Maybe I just began this so I could gloat.

Or maybe I literally belong in an asylum?

I've heard of a few before but because I'm from

a place where normal people go

they said about me, "No, no, no.

He is too insane!"

"He might hurt somebody!"

The only body being hurt is the one owned by me.

Next time before I rant I'll give you a warning.

See that right there rhymed, even though you thought it wouldn't!

Or am I mistaken? Am I coughing up flint?

So this is the last four lines about

everything that I wanted to shout.

If you need to contact me in my denial

Then it doesn't take long; all you have to do is dial:

1-899-Rockin' my style.

Author's Note

If you read that whole thing, understood it, and didn't lose your mind then congrats my friend.
If you did lose your mind, you're one of many.

Reviews

[Dani The Unreviewed]

Yeah! maybe i lost my mind after fifty hours without sleep and maybe this great piece helped to do it... But i can say you did great my friend.

[Not here]

thanks :) im glad you enjoyed it

[Dani The Unreviewed]

You are welcome.

[Melinda McQueen]

An interesting read indeed. I liked how the words were all over the page.... it was as though you were making a statement of your thoughts.
A good write.

[Not here]

thanks melinda :) i appreciate it

[closed]

there's so much you are trying to say here
i think you found a creative way of doing it

you try different styles alot which I like
you do a good job of showing us what youre feeling

and no matter what you seem to be going through in the work
you always come out on top

this was really good

and don't feel like what youre going through isnt important or that no one cares
some things can take years to fully recover from

until then you have your friends here to be your audience
and help you through it

so don't give up
take it from another rock star


-Dream

[Not here]

lol thanks dude. that means alot

[closed]

sure thing
take it to heart

[Cool Girl]

You really weren't kidding about the length! Lol
But I read it! I think I deserve a congrats for that :P

It was really good!
I think I might've lost my mind if it wasn't already lost..

[Not here]

:) lol yep. there is some messages in there but it is hard to decipher

[Cool Girl]

Well, that just makes it even more unique :)

[Not here]

yep. thats a good word for it

[Cool Girl]

Oh and forgot to add something to my review..

People do care about you!
I care and so do all of your other friends here on the site,
So don't think that we don't.

I'll always be here for you,
It's not like I'm going anywhere lol
So if you ever need anything,
Just ask! :)

[Not here]

:) thanks. i appreciate it

[Cool Girl]

Anytime :)