I Love You

This is what i wrote for my ex girlfriend. I haven't showed anybody it and i am constantly angry all of the time, maybe sharing this with everybody will help release that anger?

I know that you will have heard this all before but i need you. Not want you, NEED! You are everything to me because you gave my hope. Hope that a girl like you could fall for a boy like me. Despite what happened with us, you were the one person that i could count on, the one person i could talk too and the one person who made me smile. You were a constant glow in my life, shutting out the darkness and letting me know that you were there for me. 

I miss you so much. I miss the faces you used to pull just to make me laugh, i miss your laugh, your smile and i miss being the one you loved. Remember whenever we saw each other and you would hug me and then i would hug you tighter? I miss that more than anything because i felt safe in your arms. I didn't feel alone. The walks we had late at night, nobody around, just us. Me and you in the darkness, the silence. Now you are gone but that darkness and that silence isn't. I look beside me and i wish you were there. I look at my hands and at the gaps between my fingers and i say to myself 'your fingers were made to fit mine perfectly'.

I know that you have somebody else and i hope that he treats you exactly how you deserve. I hope that you are the happiest you can be and that your heart skips a beat every time you see him like mine does when i see you, or even see your name or hear your voice. 

You are the one. I know it because i can feel it. I feel it when i close my eyes and i feel it when i wake up on a morning and the worst part about me missing you is having to wake up and do it again everyday. Sometimes i even sleep in because sleeping hurts a lot less that reality and my dreams are a lot happier but even then, i find myself dreaming of you. 

I need you back in my life. Please come back. I love you.