O Amor e Aflicao...

 

A feeling inexplicable, although its completely understood

Her voice is my good health, her smile my paradise

Her hatred my biggest fear, her tears my demise

A glimpse of communication is enough to inject my day

My loyalty for her is one which can never sway

The beauty of her character one which leaves me in awe

Her love, the one thing I am still standing for

Although I believe its lost the memory is enough

For it uncovers within me a diamond rather rough

 

She is everything I aspire to be

My need so desperate, (fill with an intensifier please)

A conditional, maybe you shall, maybe you shant

Hold her hand forever, Khalil you know you cant

The whistle in the wind blows a story untold

Im told to live on to see how our story will unfold

A Warmth in her presence yet her heart feels so cold

I am beyond the point of forgiveness, a statement so bold

 

If it were a dream id wake and pray for reality

Yet its imminent, the truth clouded by my vanity

She is my strength, my hope and my sanity

For you to understand you must delve deep into my soul

Fall for countless nights in a seemingly never-ending hole

Once you reach the bottom you shall be blinded by a light

A light of joy, a light of love with enough power to illuminate the sky

 

Her anger is so sweet yet invokes intimidation

Her manner so severe it provokes a bleeding nation

Her eyes so celestial, her subtlety divine

Her distance her contentment, yet in my heart she’s mine

Compliments are endless and are given without intention

My worship of her existence, another courtly convention

A little cliché, I agree yet it is real and pure

Her lips so concerting, her touch I crave for

 

I am restless to know the truth of her thought

Yet by choice her revelation is bitter and short

Her independence admirable yet painful if im true

Her every actions screams “I don’t need you”

A mixed emotion on my part is soon to follow

For her actions leave my heart crying and my brain so hollow

The possibility of my death a pill which I alone must swallow

 

Her eternal happiness a daily prayer without fail

My desire for her, one which cannot stagnate or become stale

Her dress, her presentation sweeps me off my feet

A special occasion? My eyes are in for a treat

Yet realisation tells me I’m beat

For what I feel is much deeper than face value

It’s an acceptance, a harmony, a definitive “I love you”

 

She leaves me speechless yet there is so much to say

An integral cherishing of every moment and every day

My silent cry weeps pleading for her to stay

For the chance of seeing her tomorrow falters day by day

Im insane I know it for surely priorities would be useful

and I prioritise my life which she is if I am truthful

Although she shall never believe me no matter how many tongues I repeat in

She is my completion, my heart, the one I reprieve in

For a minute of her time removes a lifetime of worry

My thoughts are in pandemonium, How do I say im sorry?