scared to death

I'm scared to death
I've lost you once
I can't again
Not like that

You're going away
I'll never say goodbye
Not how I want to
Not how I need to

Something will happen
Something not good
You say it would never
I can feel it

You're so strong
I'm so jealous
You love me
But hate how I am

Sorry I couldn't change
Sorry I couldn't be happy enough

I hate that I miss you

I hate making you hate me

I never should have done
It never should have been

But now you're long gone

And I'm left to sink or swim