Should I?

Should I tell you I'm happy?
Should I tell you I'm sad?

That you're with her,
should I feel mad?

Ashamed that I put so much of myself- into us.
And to have it come out- a total bust?

Should I hope you find happiness with her,
while I'm still such a mess?

Should I wish you to the best,
when it's driving me insane?

Should I tell my feelings to quite down?
When my mind's unraveling bit by bit?

When the thought of you holding her close, of you two kissing,
just about rips me to pieces?

Tell me what to do,
when I'm still in love with you.